Sunday, November 30, 2014

The Sun Was Always Shining Behind the Clouds - Andy's Story

The Sun Was Always Shining Behind the Clouds
by Andy Rasmussen

Kundalini Yoga and Meditation are powerful tools for spiritual mastery in this life. For much of my life, I struggled with depression, anxiety, and bipolar disorder. Many of my coping techniques were born of a desperate desire to escape the crushing despair, guilt, and fear that dominated my life. In fact, it wasn’t until I began to heal that I became aware of how much my every decision was affected by a hopeless cycle of shame. It shaped my relationships with family, friends, and God. I felt trapped in a consciousness of doubt, grief, and apathy. I often experienced life as hopeless, frightening, or even tragic.
I was born and raised in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and have always been blessed with a deep testimony of the mission of Jesus Christ. Yet my view of God often settled somewhere between condemning and permitting. But almost never did I experience God as inspiring, merciful, or loving. In fact I often wondered at the expressions of joy and love for the Lord that some members offer. That kind of connection to God was simply outside my experience for thirty-five years. I knew the gospel was true, but I couldn’t make it work for me. My spiritual life was decidedly unfulfilling.
Yet eventually I learned to recognize the grace of Christ in my life. God led me to various natural healing modalities that were very helpful. This journey led me to Kundalini Yoga and Meditation as taught by Yogi Bhajan. I found Felice’s blog that provided a “translation” of this ancient Indian practice into LDS concepts, and I was inspired.
I took her introductory webinar series and later attended an all-day retreat where she taught Christ-centered meditation. It was a sublime experience. I finally had a tool of transformation that not only accessed the Atoning Power of Christ more effectively than traditional psychotherapy or medications, but placed me in command of my life in a way that was totally new to me. No longer did I need to run to a therapist or doctor when I felt anxious or depressed! No longer did I need to obsess about controlling everything and everyone around me in order to maintain my composure! At last I had the power to change, independent of outside forces! For the first time I felt truly free, able to exercise my agency to live life fully. I discovered the sun had always been shining behind the clouds!
The concepts and truths discussed in this book have blessed and opened my life in a way I never imagined. Kundalini Yoga and Meditation have scrubbed the debris from a half-lived life and prepared a space for me to receive the inspiration and abundance of my Redeemer.
Not every day is magnificent, and sometimes this journey of rebirth is surprisingly painful and intense. But every day that I include my Kundalini sadhana in my morning devotional is a better day. Even though I still notice short cycles of mania and depression, they are no longer debilitating. I have been free of psychotropic medications for years, and I live most often (though certainly not always!) in a consciousness of gratitude and willingness. My mind is clearer, and every faculty of reason and understanding is enhanced. Put simply, I am awakening to clearer and cleaner views of life.
Every week is drenched in meaning and purpose; relationships trend toward harmony more often than discord; and the God I worship is loving, wise, and everywhere. I know that I am His son, beloved and blessed and in the similitude of His Only Begotten. And so is everyone I meet.
Everyone’s journey is different, and every individual must find his or her own relationship with God, but for me, the science of Kundalini Yoga has given me the freedom and space to experience Christ’s joy. And I fully expect to continue to receive and prepare to serve Him as I pursue this path of spiritual discipline.

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

The Power of the Mind and Intention

The Power of the Mind and Intention

It is widely known a person’s thoughts can speed up or slow down the healing process. This phenomenon has been demonstrated through millions of cases of the placebo effect and the nocebo effect. Though research has given us some understanding, the mind has powers beyond comprehensible thought and beyond current scientific discoveries. The mind can heal, transform matter, change the outcome of events, and even change the order of events in time and space. Below are just a few of the astonishing findings from studies on the power of intention, thought, prayer, and mental focus.

  • Study participants were able to slow the growth of yeast growing in 151 of 194 dishes just by directing mental focus toward the yeast. This experiment was repeated sixteen times, and each time the results were similar.

  • Neurologists found that when people are open-minded and suspend judgment until both sides of an argument are considered, neurological functioning increases. But cynicism, which implies hostility and distrust toward the other point of view, is so neurologically damaging that it can shorten your life.

  • In a study conducted by cardiologist Randolph Byrd, patients who were prayed for by other people (without the patients’ knowledge) were five times less likely to need antibiotics or to develop pulmonary edema. Additionally, none of the prayed-for patients needed an artificial breathing apparatus; in contrast twelve patients who were not prayed for did need an an apparatus.

  • Other studies on prayer show that nondirect prayers work best, meaning that individuals who do not pray for a specific outcome but rather for the highest and best good often receive the best results.

  • In a Princeton University study, participants projected their intentions at a machine that generates random numbers, with the goal of influencing the machine to generate a predictable pattern of numbers. The results were astounding: In the majority of the 256,000 trials of the experiment, the participants were able to influence the machine. The Princeton study also included some other fascinating details:

  • The results were better when the subjects bonded with the machines––similar to how people bond with their cars––before trying to exert influence.
  • The study involved not only individuals but also pairs. Among all the subjects, couples in love were the most able to influence the machines.
  • The most astonishing of the results is that subjects were able to influence the machines after the machines had already run, suggesting that the power of the mind is not limited by ordinary constraints of time and space.

This mental power is yet more evidence that man is not merely flesh, but rather a spark of the divine. As divine beings, whatever we create––even mentally––can become reality. The power of the mind is only limited by our own imaginations. This power also applies to negative thoughts and imaginings, which produce negative results and even neurological damage.

For good or for bad, our minds are powerful. And we can make them even more so. According to scientific research, and my own anecdotal studies, advanced meditators have the most developed of mental powers and the most powerful abilities to project through prayer.

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Dealing With Difficult People - Including Oneself

Sometimes we all have progress black-outs. A black-out is what I call those moments when you forget everything you have learned and act very unconsciously. I'll be first to admit I have them. Though they are less frequent these days, they still happen.

At one of my favorite restaurants. Wouldn't it be great if everyone were vegetarian?

Last Saturday I taught some of my students something and the very next day I had a black-out on the same topic. Ouch. The past few days have been a painful process of relearning and rebirth. I talked to a friend who described the doctrine of Christ a little differently, and I love it. She said it is not linear. It is not: Faith, Repentance, Baptism, Holy Ghost, Endure to the Eeeeeeeennnnnnnnnnndddddddddd.

It is more like a circle. As we are enduring, we come to new crossroads where we have to use faith again, repent (change) and then are reborn, not through baptism again but through the sacrament or through the very personal experience of having Christ change our hearts. This will happen again and again as we continue on our journey (endure.)

I remember doing a powerful rebirthing kriya in 2010 and having an ecstatic experience. After that I really thought that was all the rebirth I would ever need. Ha! This is why there are dozens of rebirthing kriyas and not just one. Jesus Christ is always working on my heart.

Wouldn't it be awesome if everyone was a great as your best friend.

The issue that I am still working on is the one that seems to be on everyone's minds right now and that is, how do I get along in this world or in my ward, or in my own family with people who are so different than me? Some words from M. Katherine Thomas's book Spiritual Lightening found me and presented what many of us may already know in a fresh way. Here they are:
... we may have misconceptions about how to be happy and how to establish relationships of at-one-ment with others. We may think these relationships have to be ideal; we may think that the people around us have to be ideal, that they would have to feel and think the way we do in order to be happy, or that we have to think as they do in order to have the spirit of at-one-ment between us. We may feel that many of the people around us do not value what we do, do not meet our hopes and dreams, and we may despair that we will ever experience at-one-ment with some of the people God has placed in our lives.
Here indeed is the reality of telestial living--nearly every day someone will do to us one or more of the following: belittle, be insensitive to needs, show indifference....

She goes on to list a bunch of things such as: ignore, abuse, inconvenience, make us feel unimportant, demand, misunderstand, accuse, threaten, and otherwise mistreat us. To this first part one may answer, as I did: "And?" But read more:

Maybe the purpose for such experiences can be answered with this question: How shall we ever learn Christ-like love unless we have a chance to practice it in the face of the opposites? Every disrupted relationship, whether in our own home or within a particular group or community, is a chance to forge the divine nature in ourselves and prepare for that endless state of happiness....
It would appear that the people in our lives are there are for important reasons. We stand in a sacred relationship to them because we and they cannot be made perfect without each other. Nevertheless, we remember that seldom are they given to us primarily to satisfy us. Rather they are given to us to make possible a much greater love than we would have been capable of in a situation where everybody agreed with us, everybody liked us, everybody saw everything the way we do. These abrasive people in our lives are friends in disguise. They are there to teach us to perfect love in ourselves, not to perfect them. 
Yogi Bhajan was big on this concept. He always said the the worst teacher is one that will tell you you are doing great all the time. He always said that when you meet your true teacher it will be the worst day of your life!  It is true that I got a little spoiled on my tour. I was around so many amazing people who appreciated me and liked me and wanted to learn from me. Coming home was a bit of a let down. And the Father of lies was really trying to work that angle on me.

He (Satan) has only a few strategies, which you can learn about in 2 Nephi. One is flatterey: "You are so smart, so good, so much better than... You deserve xyz..."

He also uses the lulling: "All is well in Zion. Nothing bad could ever happen. You don't have to put on your spiritual armor today." 

All is well in Zion.

The third strategy is to stir people up to anger one with another. He does this in subtle ways sometimes, by trying to hook us into getting offended or irritable or to pass blame. Sometimes it is anger at ourselves, which quickly can be transfered to others.

He was using the first two on me for a few weeks to lay the groundwork, but finally when I got angry I started to pay attention. I felt so awful one day and and I think I offended everyone I met. (Of course that is their choice, but I pushed buttons.)

I finally realized that it was evil spirits and cast them out and felt better, but not as good as new. I still had shame about my black-out had some programming to dismantle and that is still ongoing. But I praise God for the experience and showing me these unhealed parts of me.

And as I have sought to heal these unhealed parts of me I have found that just reading a great quote and pondering it is not enough to actually change my relationships. And since I know you have similar concerns, I'd like to share with you what I am doing.

I know all the typical LDS interventions, such as prayer, fasting, temple attendance, scripture power. I am a regular at these things. But sometimes, for reasons I mentioned in this post, we subconsciously block the healing power of the Atonement and place a hard shell around our hearts. And though it is subconscious, it is still our choice to do that and God honors agency. There are a few things that can break through the wall or knot of the heart. One is prana, which comes in on the breath. It is the light of Christ. I explain it in my book here. 

The power of the Word can also clear and clean the subconscious. And I have been consistently meditating and using the purifying effects of the sound current in every way I can.

I have also been using imagery. The power of the imagination to break through maya (the illusion or veil) is more than we can even understand. I have been going into imagery state to create a peaceful accepting loving feeling and collapse some triggers. Also, with Jesus Christ as my guide, and in a circle of safety, I call in the higher selves of some of the people I wish to make things right with. In some cases they are mere acquaintances. Others are family members or other people close to me. Once I saw all of the other person's pain flash before my eyes and I was able to understand where they came from and have compassion on them.

This has been an amazing experience. Sometimes I think the other person feels it and I can see a change in them, but mostly it changes me.

I think one of the big things I need to come home to learn was that I am not in my current ward to teach them anything but to learn from each of them and to learn all this.

As M. Katherine Thomas so beautiful states;

We do not need ideal relationships to be happy; we can live happily with less than ideal because each relationship can be enriched with that spirit of at-one-ment with so greatly improves the quality of our personal emotional lives.
The truth is that we co-create all of our experiences. Sometimes this is hard to own. But once we own it, God can direct us how to dismantle this programming and heal and become response-able instead of reactionary. The relationships may not change, but our state of happiness and our spiritual development certainly will.

Wahe Guru for all my teachers, known and unknown, past and future, who have shown me the unhealed parts of me. 

Monday, November 24, 2014

What Is Sexual Energy For?

Last week I shared some information with my Spirituality and Sexuality class that I feel should be more widely known. So I am posting it here.

Here is the quote from the Kriya notes:

"In our culture we are taught to view sex in terms of pleasure and reproduction. We aren't educated in the need for moderation in sex in order to maintain health and nerve balance. Sexual experience in correct consciousness can give you the experience of God and bliss, but before that can occur, you must charge your sexual batteries and possess a real potency. Seminal fluids, male and female, contain high concentrations of minerals and elements crucial to proper nerve balance and brain function. The sexual fluid is reabsorbed by the body if it is allowed to  mature. Its essence or "Ojas" is transported into the spinal fluid. Running your mind without ojas is like running your car without oil-- you wear out quickly. About 90% of your sexual energy is used to repair and rejuvenate the organs of the body. 
The normal span of potency for a yogi is equal to the length of his life. In the United States potency wanes even in the early forties a generates sexual energy and transmutes it into ojas and healing force. 
I love it when the small box we have put something in gets blown up. The yogis knew that sexual energy is so much more than what we are currently fed to believe. It is our most powerful energy. It can create life. It is your source of creative productivity but also is important in regenerating and rejuvinating the body. So when people are highly sexually active, whether in a marriage or with everyone they date, or if the masturbate all the time, they are missing the real point. Not only will their body, and their ability to use it, wear out quickly, but true bliss can never be experienced unless it is done in correct consciousness.

This is such a great kriya and I love teaching it. I'm pretty sure everyone felt elevated afterward. If you aren't talking my spirituality and sexuality series you can still register here. The classes are all recorded and I am still adding new ones each week.

Sat Nam

My Heart Was Failing Me - Chablis's Story

By Chablis Adams

Chablis is on the right

On July 17, 2012 at 4:00 a.m., while sleeping, I was hit with a major, sudden, and unexpected panic attack. I had never experienced anything like it before and thought I was having a heart attack. Embarrassingly, I was transported to the ER via an ambulance and spent an entire day being tested and probed for heart problems, only to be told over the phone by a cardiologist that my heart was healthy, I must've had some anxiety, and I should just go home and rest. I felt like an idiot.
That day began my journey of painful, never-ending anxiety. I suffered every day. Sometimes all day and all night. My heart would race, and I couldn't catch my breath. My chest was sore, and it hurt to breathe. Sometimes the pressure in my chest would be so overwhelming, I couldn't do anything but lay down. I had pulling/straining pains in my upper back, digestion issues, headaches, and exhaustion. I became very depressed.
Kind people who wanted to help would tell me to find things I enjoy and do them often. It was then that I realized that I didn't enjoy anything anymore. I didn't enjoy my kids, even when they were being sweet. I didn't enjoy baths or baking or makeup or making friends. I didn't have any close friends in Atlanta yet. Though the church group is wonderful and I knew I could call several people from church at anytime and receive help, I didn't want to call them. I didn't want to put forth any kind of effort toward socialization.
During these weeks, I would beg my husband, almost on a daily basis it seemed, to give me a priesthood blessing before bed. I would read my scriptures and pour my soul out in prayer. "Help thou my unbelief," I would cry, as I was sure that my Heavenly Father could heal me and stop this madness and that it was just my wavering faith that was in the way. My prayers helped . . . a little. I would sob nightly in conversation with God. Eventually, in exhaustion and with the peace of knowing that my Heavenly Father would take care of me, I would slip into a slumber (often just to be woken up a few hours later with the pounding of my heart).
I knew I needed to see a doctor. It took roughly four weeks before I was seen. When I finally got in to see a doctor, she was very understanding and really wanted to be very helpful. She suggested that I start taking two prescription medications and one over-the-counter medication: (1) Zoloft, an antidepressant; (2) Xanax, an anxiety med; and 93) Unisom, a sleep aid. I have always been wary of taking medications, so I told the doctor I would have to do some research and think and pray about the medications and get back to her.
That very day I heard from a friend whose brother-in-law had just committed suicide weeks after taking a new antidepressant medication. This was a huge red flag for me, and I saw it as a sign from God that these pills would not help me. I wanted to take these pills, and I wanted them to help me. But the more I thought about the possibility of them making my situation worse and not better (which is rare, but does happen), the worse my anxiety would get. This was my answer from God about the antidepressants. I knew there was another way I could overcome my anxiety. I just didn't know what it was yet.
When I and my family got back from a trip to Utah, I began seeing a therapist weekly. She helped me immensely, and I still see her regularly. On our very first visit, she taught me the importance of breathing, breathing correctly, and paying attention to my breathing. I began breathing down through my belly and diaphragm and focusing on slowing the breath down and pushing the breath deeper. This helped me a ton, but I was still battling anxiety almost daily.
Then, one day I stumbled upon this:

Progressive Prophetess

It was as if a light turned on inside my soul and I could feel the Holy Ghost telling me inside that this was my answer.
I knew right away that I wanted to be a part of this meditation challenge. The word meditation was hitting me so strongly. I had always known that meditation was a good thing for people to do. I just didn't know how to do it. I had tried before, but just sitting in my room, trying to be quiet was always so confusing. I couldn't do it. I needed someone to teach me how to meditate. This is where Felice came in. I signed up for her weekly webinar class. This was one of the best things I've ever done for myself.
In our first class, Felice quoted Doctrine and Covenants 88:91: "And all things shall be in commotion, and surely men's hearts shall fail them for fear shall come upon all people." This scripture just blew me away because my heart was failing me. I could not function in my daily life because my heart was failing to keep up with the stress going on in my mind. I would venture to say that people's hearts are failing them every day in every way, and some may not even know it. The more I open up about my issues with anxiety, the more I find that everyone is dealing with anxiety on some level.
Felice taught me several different meditations. The one I have done for the last forty days is called Kirtan Kriya. You can google it. Meditation may seem way too weird" or out in left field for some of you. All I can say is that it has changed my life. When I had a few days of resistance or hesitation with the meditation, I would ask Heavenly Father if this was something that was good for me and would help me. I always got the answer, "Yes, this is good for you." I would feel happy and excited to meditate again.
Within three days of starting Kirtan Kriya, I was finding myself falling asleep without having to count my breathing to keep my heart rate down. I can now look back and see how seriously depressed I really was, even though I didn't really think that was part of my problem. I feel happy and so blessed to be a mother to my children. They are no longer a burden to me. In fact, my ability to stay calm and patient when they are acting up has increased tenfold! My follow through with discipline and my ability to communicate with my kids has improved greatly. I feel so much love for them. I feel so much love for other people. Now that my heart is open to God's, I can feel His love flowing out of me to other people. My prayers have changed, and I somehow feel inspired to ask for certain things from God that I never would have asked for before. I have been much more grateful and sincere in my prayers. This all may seem very drastic, and it is! It's only been six weeks.
Do I still struggle with anxiety? A little bit. Basically, I've noticed that when I am tired, I lose the ability to control my thoughts and emotions. So, when I am overly tired, I struggle more. But let me just tell you that even those moments are mild in comparison to my everyday struggles six weeks ago. Meditation works!

This essay was taken from a blog post Chublis wrote 6 weeks after beginning meditation. Two years later, she reported that she is still meditating (though not as consistently, due to 3 moves, and a new baby) but she is still enjoying the benefits and helped us uplevel Washington DC a month ago.

Friday, November 21, 2014

The Width And Depth Of The Heart

The Width and Depth of the Heart

Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God.––Matthew 5:8

No discussion of the body, mind, and spirit is complete without discussing the heart. The word heart is used more than fifteen hundred times in the scriptures. From the many diverse uses of the word, it is evident the heart is more than a mere physical organ. According to my scriptural research, the heart has the following functions (and more):

  • The heart can have thoughts, intentions, wisdom, and understanding (see Proverbs 2:2; 23:15; Mosiah 5).
  • The heart is a center for transformation and healing (see Alma 5:7, 14).
  • The heart is also a center of communication and a dwelling place of the Spirit (see Doctrine and Covenants 8:2).
  • The heart can feel (see 2 Nephi 9:52; Doctrine and Covenants 98:1; 100:12; 110:6; 128:22).
  • The heart can be written on (see Mosiah 5:12).
  • The heart can be open or closed, hard or soft (see 1 Nephi 15:3; Mosiah 2:9; Alma 24:8).
  • It is evident from the repetitive admonition to “love the Lord thy God with all thine heart” (Deuteronomy 6:5) that the heart is vast and that it may be partitioned off by some (see Mark 12:30, Matthew 22:37; Luke 10:27; and many others).
  • God has told us to purify our hearts that we may stand in His presence and be like Him (Matthew 5:8; Doctrine and Covenants 88:74).

To purify our hearts, we need to give our hearts to God, and in order to do so, we need spiritual technology. For example, fasting and prayer (regularly) are the spiritual technology identified in the following scripture:
Nevertheless they did fast and pray oft, and did wax stronger and stronger in their humility, and firmer and firmer in the faith of Christ, unto the filling their souls with joy and consolation, yea, even to the purifying and the sanctification of their hearts, which sanctification cometh because of their yielding their hearts unto God. (Helaman 3:35)

When Christ came and fulfilled the law of Moses, blood sacrifice was no longer necessary; in its place, He required a sacrifice of a broken heart and a contrite spirit: “And whoso cometh unto me with a broken heart and a contrite spirit, him will I baptize with fire and with the Holy Ghost” (3 Nephi 9:20).
Elder Jeffrey R. Holland says, “Think of the heart as the figurative center of our faith, the poetic location of our loyalties and our values.”[1] As you come to understand yogic anatomy and the chakras, you will know these words are not merely poetic. The heart is the literal center of the seven cerebrospinal chakras, the place where the lower triangle (earth bound chakras) and the upper triangle (spiritual/heavenly centered chakras) meet and overlap. The heart is the center for transformation and communication between the physical and etheric bodies.
The heart may also be the center of the mind. In the prior age, the mind and the brain were thought to be one and the same, however, the mind is non-physical. Scientists and mind-body experts now realize that the mind does not exist in the brain but throughout the whole body and even outside of the body. The nucleus of the mind may reside in the heart, a truth I believe is supported by the scriptures.
During the Piscean age the brain was considered king. Its latitude was higher than that of the heart and was therefore considered higher in hierarchy and importance. However, in the 1970s, scientists discovered that the heart has an intricate nervous system of its own. This discovery gave birth to a new branch of science called neurocardiology. It turns out that the body has two brains, with the brain in the head obeying the brain in the heart.[2]

Compared to the electromagnetic field produced by the brain, the electrical component of the heart’s field is about 60 times greater in amplitude, and permeates every cell in the body. The magnetic component is approximately 5,000 times stronger than the brain’s magnetic field and can be detected several feet away from the body with sensitive magnetometers.[3]

The heart––or as the yogis call it, the Heart Center––is in fact the essence of You. In your mother’s womb, your heart formed first, before the brain and before any other organ. The heart has its own intelligence. It can think and feel and remember.
The scriptures (and the yogic prophecies too) say that in the last days, “all things shall be in commotion; and surely, men’s hearts shall fail them; for fear shall come upon all people” (Luke 21:26; see also Doctrine and Covenants 88:91). We are living in these times.
  When God asks us to purify our hearts, He is asking us to purify our minds and bodies. The many clichés that exist about the heart can teach us something of its nature. For example, if we are to “get to the heart of the matter” and make a mighty change, we need to look to the heart and use a technology that purifies the mind, body, and spirit.

O all ye that are pure in heart, . . . receive the pleasing word of God, and feast upon his love; for ye may, if your minds are firm, forever.—Jacob 3:2.

[1]Jeffrey R. Holland, “Safety for the Soul,” Ensign, November 2009,
[2] “Heart-Brain Interactions,” Institute of HeartMath, accessed March 24, 2014,
[3] Rollin McCraty, Raymond Trevor Bradley, and Dana Tomasino, “The Resonant Heart,” Frontiers of Consciousness, February 2005, 15–19.

The Chain Has Been Broken!

The Chain Had\s Been Broken
Sarah Cooksley

Abuse and neglect are patterns of behavior that have long threads travelling through my family lines. My mother did her best to help me and my siblings overcome difficult circumstances and emotional abuse from our father, but she was never given the right tools to handle things in the most efficient way. She has done the best she could, and for that I am grateful.
I feel that meditation has helped me to change habits and deeply ingrained thought patterns in my life. Meditation has also given me greater insight into my mother. I know that she volunteered to bear the brunt of the pain and heartache of abuse and neglect so that she could be the catalyst for change in our family. She was able to save her children from being brought up in a dysfunctional home through her divorce and, eventually, in moving her small family to a different country.
My path toward Kundalini Yoga was put into motion many years before I found this technology. Preparations began when I was a young teenager, during family counselling sessions and tentative attempts to meditate on my own without any instruction or guidance.
Now, many years later, my children are being raised by a mother who knows herself better than ever before. They meditate with me and have seen the difference in our family life. I think I can safely say that the chain of abuse has been broken; the chain that stretched back through several generations of my ancestors no longer binds me.

Thursday, November 20, 2014

Imagery With Amarjot

I had the most amazing experience with my daughter last night. We have had many amazing times this past few months. Here is a little back story: Amarjot has been seeing angels for I don't know how long, but she has been talking about it for about the last year and a half. She sees them as spots of color. Some large and some small. She doesn't see them all the time, but when she is calm and tuned into her spiritual nature, she will see them.

One night she saw dozens of them in our room when we were staying with some friends. We were trying to read our scriptures and then she started laughing and playing with the little lights that were moving around the room. She was so full of joy as she described them. She laughed as she tried to catch one in her hands, but her fingers went right through it. She pretended to pet the little blue spot of light. It sounded like a laser show, but i couldn't see any of it. At least, not the way she could, but with my spiritual eyes I could imagine what she was describing and I could feel them in the room.

At times she can talk to them and hear/feel answers back. It's really sweet. At one of the yoga classes I taught while on our tour she turned to me after the tune in and said, with wide eyes, that she saw a round ball of color over everyone's head. Everyone in the room. She said they were all different colors.

Well, last night she was telling me that she doesn't really believe they are angels. They must just be something wrong with her eyes. I think someone must have been telling her this. Maybe Satan. Sounds like him. So she was having a doubting moment and I was telling her that she saw them and that they were really angels. But we weren't getting anywhere because she was in an argumentative mood. So I decided to try something different.

I asked her if I could show her how I sometimes see angels. She agreed and laid on the bed and I guided her through a relaxation and into the imagery state. I have only done this with her one other time successfully. She is a natural daydreamer, but until recently, she wasn't old enough to really do the guided imagery kind of thing. So this time I was just hoping and winging it.

I asked her to imagine a special place. She described a white house with a white fence around it and said when she opened the door she felt so much peace. She started to cry. She said she felt so happy she was crying. Inside was a small little girl angel that she described down to the hair and clothes. She had a very sweet conversation with the angel, who she knew. She knew her from before. I knew her too.

The angel told her that the spots she sees are indeed angels. As I watched my daughter in this blissful trance I saw her whole body glowing with light. She was so angelic looking. She was crying tears of joy. I was too.

I asked if she wanted to ask anything else of her angel and she said: "I just want to spend some time with her." So I gave them some time together and when the time was right and after parting words, I brought her back to her waking state.

When she opened her eyes she looked at me with the most pure expression of love I have ever seen. I asked her if she had ever felt that much peace before. I told her that is what Heaven feels like and what I feel like often when I meditate. I told her that it was through the Holy Ghost that she felt that feeling. She hugged me and didn't let go for a long time. It was pretty special. She said she would never forget that night in her whole life.

I am so grateful that I had this immediate answer to a prayer (said that morning) that I could give her an understanding of the gospel. She felt the peace and love of our Savior. And it was awesome! She wanted to feel it all the time. And it looks like she has already figured out how.

Today we went to yoga class and during one of the meditations she didn't feel like doing she just laid down and guided her self through a journey. She told me about it later. I asked her where she went and she said: same place. She kept the details to herself.

Wahe Guru.

Circle of Ancestors

Circle of Ancestors
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I knew I was supposed to do genealogy work for my family. When I learned about generational healing, I had a strong feeling it was the genealogy work I was to focus on. After praying and getting the answer that this was what I was supposed to do, I went to my family tree. I would look at the names and pray. Then the Spirit would direct me to a name.
I had a very strong feeling that I should do work for my great-grandfather’s mother. This surprised me. I also did not know how to go about doing this because my grandfather broke all ties with his father’s family. He changed his name and got away from anything to do with them. He was upset that not only his father but is grandparents had abandoned his family. I didn't know how to do this work. Even though I didn't have my great-grandmother’s name I felt I was suppose to do work for her.  
Then I had an overwhelming feeling to sit in a circle with my great-grandmother and her ex-mother-in-law. I could tell they had had very negative feelings toward each other in this life and wanted to let them go. I sat down in a circle with the two of them and did the mediation Ra Ma Da Sa. The love and power that was present was incredible, the love and forgiveness overwhelming. Not only was this one of the most spiritual experiences I have had, it was eye-opening.
I realized that we never know what the other person is going through. We never know their story. It helped me understand the scripture where Christ tells us to “Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you. And unto him that smiteth thee on the one cheek offer also the other” (Luke 6:27–29). That night during that mediation there was pure love between two women who had every reason to hold a grudge and be offended.

I will forever be grateful for that experience and the lessons I learned while meditating with the spirits of two amazing women. God is love, and if we allow Him, He will change our hearts and open our understanding. With the help of our Savior, we can develop the pure love of Christ. We can let go of pain, anger, hatred, and any feelings or emotions that are not of God. That night I felt the power of God and His healing power through meditation.