Thursday, August 10, 2017

What "My Husband Said No" Really Means

I have heard it before, but lately I feel like I have heard "My husband said no" an awful lot more than usual. It's even on t-shirts. And not just husbands, but wives saying no, and parents, and even "God said no."

What's this all about? You have heard people say it. Maybe you have said it.

I have been pondering it and being curious and here are potential things that I think it might mean:

1. "I am afraid to tell you no so I am blaming it on my husband/wife/parents/God."

2. "I am powerless because I have given my power away to others to make decisions for me. This is because: a) I am afraid of making the wrong decision; b) I don't trust myself;  c) I don't trust others; d) if something goes wrong I am not to blame; e) all of the above.

3. "I am angry at my husband/wife/parents etc because anger at them is easier than looking at the truth about my life and my choices. I get to be a victim, which gives me a kind of power and is comfortable and it keeps me safe from something much scarier which is change and the unknown."

There might be other variations. But this is what I could come up with from my own life experience. This is one of the reasons I stopped blogging for a while. (By they way, this is my way of saying I'm back! Or as back as I feel like being.)

I stopped blogging because it was taking up a lot of my creative energy and I wanted to focus on my novel and my other creative pursuits. For years I hadn't let myself go down that amazingly unknown path of living fully in my creative power. I didn't have a husband, so I blamed God for this self abuse. I told myself that God needed me to write a book, etc etc. But the truth is, the whole time God was supportive of anything I wanted to do and I often heard the Spirit encourage me to pursue my creative writing. But I was the one who couldn't let myself. And so I had to stop blogging for a while because it was too tempting and easy to get sucked into the old pattern of blogging a lot and having no time for writing. So now I hope to be able to stay balanced. BTW, my novel is coming along fabulously. My characters are all very alive and won't let me bail on them now.

The truth is, God doesn't say no.  There is a beautiful and fun poem you can find in Poetry 180 called  "God Says Yes to Me." I sometimes read it to clients.

God Says Yes To Me

I asked God if it was okay to be melodramatic
and she said yes
I asked her if it was okay to be short
and she said it sure is
I asked her if I could wear nail polish
or not wear nail polish
and she said honey
she calls me that sometimes
she said you can do just exactly
what you want to
Thanks God I said
And is it even okay if I don't paragraph
my letters
Sweetcakes God said
who knows where she picked that up
what I'm telling you is
Yes Yes Yes
—Kaylin Haught
We are here to make choices. God is giving you a big fat yes. That's what life is about. So when we give away our power to another person or a make believe version of God, we are not saying Yes! to life.

I'm not suggesting that people tell their husband/wife/parents that they don't care what they think and are going to go do xyz anyway. Relationships are about communication. The big changes started with me when I started to speak differently. Instead of saying "God told me to do..." I started saying something like "I consulted with my Soul/God and I decided."

Or instead of "my husband said no," one could say any one of the three options above- which ever feels most true. And see what happens when you speak truth. There are great support groups to help people just like all of us who go through this! 12 steps programs, communication classes, relationship classes, etc. I have been to my share of 12 step meetings. They have merit. It's about recovery--recovering one's true identity and power to act for one's self. It is beautiful and freeing and you can be safe in the process.

If you need help reach out. Much love.  NJ

Sunday, August 6, 2017

Eclipse Season - What You Want To Know

I have been meaning to write a post about the eclipses that are upcoming and what I think about them. But I haven't had time. So I did a podcast on Zion Consciousness. Here is is, less than 30 minutes. I hope you enjoy it. If you have questions or comments join our ZC facebook group.


Nam Joti

Sunday, July 30, 2017

I Fasted For You Today

I had this realization today as I fasted for you, but I am having trouble explaining it. Basically, I have felt that there are more people who need to come to my Bali retreat and to some other things I am doing, like my imagery training. I have been doing this kind of thing for a long time. I pray about doing something and I get a number of how many people are supposed to come. When they still haven't all signed up, I start to pray and fast. A lot. My realization was that I am fasting for you, not me.

Ok so it's partly related to me, because if you (or they) don't come, it can cause financial stress for me. But it's really for the persons who belongs. Because it is sad when I do a retreat or a class and there is this feeling that someone is missing. It is a loss for me and everyone. Others notice and comment on it too when it happens. God is only trying to bless us. So I fasted today that you will accept that invitation. I believe you know who you are.

I have two spots left for the Bali retreat and the retreat center keeps bugging me to know who is coming and if the rooms are all full. And despite making them a little irritated, I have held on to these mystery spots hoping that who ever it belongs to will just figure it out and come. I take a financial risk in doing this. And so I can't do it for much longer or I will be in trouble.

So if you have felt the pull to come to Bali-- it is now spur of the moment (it starts in 2 weeks from today) then please contact me ASAP or register here now.

Or, if you feel like you need to do imagery training this year (I won't be doing it again till next year) then I'm inviting you to act on it by Aug 4, 2017. Reach out to me if you are worried or have obstacles you need help overcoming. There is a way through every block.

Sat Nam.

Thursday, July 13, 2017

The Magic of Simple

Simplifying is something on many people's minds. With the success of Marie Kondo's book about tidying up and the life changing magic that comes with it--many people are clearing out the closets. Letting go of stuff feels good. So does letting go of those steamer trunks full of emotional sand bags. But it's not always so easy to move into simple. Simple isn't always easy. Here's a trick I have learned: your surroundings, your diet, your habits--will only change as your consciousness changes. Slow and steady is a great way to do it. But if you want a quick and magical shift into an improved and authentic life--you have to go away. Getting out of your routine and your life as it is and going away for a few days or a week or more can give you the perspective you can't get at home. Going to a retreat where you will be given the opportunities to learn, heal and see with new eyes, is the best possible scenario.

It has happened to me many times. It's why I offer retreats in far away places. Sure, it's nice to have one in your back yard and avoid air travel, but a retreat in your back yard won't shift you quite as much or as fast. There is something about crossing an ocean than makes you humble, teachable, and re-activates the belief in magic, beauty, and God's desire to bless you. And you will come back blessed. Simply. Purely. Gracefully.

I have two upcoming retreats that I would love to invite you to join, while spaces last. The first one coming up is
7 Days and Nights in Bali! Destiny Alignment and Christ Consciousness are the themes. Men and women welcome. Teens too. All levels welcome! It's happening August 13-20, 2017.  Click here now to accept my invitation and come! But today is really about the last possible day to register. So if you miss it,

The next one is called Self-Love - A Luxury Woman's Retreat. Kauai.  November 2-7, 2017. As it states, its for women only. And space is very limited as it is meant to be intimate.  Register Here Now. 

I love you and hope you have a great week! If I can help you overcome any obstacles to coming, please let me know how I can help you.

Sat Nam,

Nam Joti Kaur

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Making Cake and Thinking Of Bali

I am making a zucchini chocolate cake and packing for Summer Solstice Celebration in New Mexico. But I am really thinking about Bali. Even when I am in the moment, I can also be in Bali. It is a tiny island in the Indonesian chain, but it has more than 10,000 temples. It's a place of devotion and spiritual amplification. I am beyond excited to go there in August and host and teach a retreat in the magical north part of that island.

I have been talking to people who have been there. One woman said it brought her husband and her closer together in a way that she wasn't expecting. Another women I just talked to returned after 6 weeks of traveling there by herself. She said it's the easiest and safest place to go and not have a place to sleep that night. The people are wonderful and they become your friends for life. If you go back, they will remember you and take care of you. And she was so amazed at how easy it was for families with multiple children to travel around. The Balinese love children and are very accommodating. This makes me happy.

Recently I was drifting off to sleep and I dreamt that I was at one of the underwater temples. I was seeing through the eyes of a statue that represented some deity and feeling very at home. I have said it before, I think I was a helper in the creation of the earth - especially the oceans. So I am excited to go back to such a clean and healthy ocean (they have some of the best snorkeling in the world in Bali) and remember just what this planet and all the elements here are capable of as far as beauty and healing and partnership with us in this once in a lifetime retreat. I hope you are coming. There are few spots left. Info and registration is here. If you want to save $100- 250, contact me to find out how: progressiveprophetess at gmail.

Love and Sat Nam.

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

I Can Do All Things

Not too long ago I was reading the scriptures hukum style and I opened to Paul's letter to the Phillipians. Chapter 4. Verses 11 and 12. These are the two verses that come right before the sort of well known verse 13: "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."

They are super interesting. Here they are:

11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.
12 I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. 

They are cool scriptures in and of themselves. I interpret them as being about the neutral mind. Paul says he knows how to be hungry and how to be full, how to rough it as well as how to take the luxury liner. And he has learned to be content in whatever circumstance.

What is super interesting to me is that verse 13 follows these: "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."

Most people think of needing Christ to strengthen them through rough times, the times of want. But I see now that Paul is saying that sometimes we need Christ to give us the strength to be okay on the luxury liner as well.  I have experienced this time and again as I have had to expand--because my soul wanted to and I called it in--but my subconscious mind or body did NOT like the changes. It can be a real shock to the nervous system to suddenly have a million dollars land on you when you are used to struggling for hundreds. I know some of you think--try me, I'll take a million dollars, or a bigger house, etc-- but if you look at lotto winners, the statistics about them shows that they struggle. Most of them end up not happier and broke again within a few years. This is because its not always easy to be content with whatever circumstances, especially if you are programmed (by your family, your culture, etc) for struggle.

So I guess I'm writing this to encourage all of you who would like to receive, or who are resisting a great flow and abundance. It requires strength! But you can do it through Christ.

And Christ is ok with you taking care of yourself. Self-care is different than selfishness and is essential for this age when cold-depression and dis-connection from the Self is the most common problem. It kills people. Who otherwise could have made a huge contribution.

So anyway....

I feel that a great flow is coming to those who want to build Zion. Specifically a flow of money. As of right now, that's the economy we live in. It takes money for proper self-care, and then to build Zion. And it is just as easy for God to deliver $10 as $1000000. It's just a bunch of zeros.

Allow. Be content.

Be grateful and teachable.  Let's do all things through Christ.

Sat Nam.

Monday, June 5, 2017


Lots of women are jealous of the men's program I am running and wanting something of that depth for them.  I don't blame them.  I love women, and many have gotten a taste of this kind of thing at my intimate retreats, but I haven't had any sort of advanced mentorship program for as of yet. I have been collaborating with God on what it should look like, and it didn't come until today. So of course, I am blogging about it right now.

It's called STEADFAST. It's an advanced mentorship and women's circle. It's for women (obvi) who feel like I am a teacher or mentor for them and they want more. It's not just about Kundalini Yoga, but all the other things that I bring, not least of which is my love for the gospel of Jesus Christ and the building of Zion right now. It's for powerful women who are spiritual luminaries in their own right (even if you may not call yourself that) who are doing this great work and feel the need for sisterhood, more learning, connection, and support, and steadfastness.

Of course, a background in Kundalini Yoga will be a prerequisite--at least Level 0 or Level 1. Anyone without those trainings but with a solid practice will be considered on a case by case basis.

It will begin at the end of June. The enrollment is limited because it will be intimate. All other details about the program will be shared individually. So if you want to know more, contact me to find out more. You know where to find me. If not, leave a comment. Blessings and Sat Nam.