Tuesday, April 22, 2014

My Ebenezer - From Lani

So my dear friend Lani--I love her--but sometimes she is a stinker and won't take a drink of water even though she may be dying of thirst in the desert. Luckily she came to her senses and wrote this to share with you all.

Here she is on the left super blissed out at the Cedar City retreat.

Eben-Ezer (Hebrew: אבן העזר‎, stone of help)

For nearly two months I’ve been resisting. Going with Felice to White Tantric back in February was brutally intense. It was like an ultra-marathon for yogis, and holy cow I hadn’t done nearly enough training for that endurance feat. I came away from the experience thinking: I don’t want to meditate… ever… again.

For the most part, I haven’t. For almost two months.

And, for the past couple of weeks, life has been pummelling me with one thing after another. Before one fire was even put out, another was starting a few feet away. One. thing. after. another. I’ve been exhausted, irritable, drained of energy, sick, in physical pain, struggling to breathe, and often in despair. Worst of all, I have been angry at God, bitter that it felt like He was intentionally torturing me.

Last night I cried myself to sleep. This morning, I was awakened to the phlegmy coughing of my three-year-old, this coming after a long succession of illnesses among the rest of the family. It was the last straw. The darkness and bitterness snapped what little was left of any joy in my heart.

I was finally desperate enough for relief that I thought, “Meditation couldn’t possibly make me feel any worse than I feel right now, and it might help me feel better.” Before I could change my mind, I went into my room and closed the door. (My husband, home sick, was downstairs with the kids.) I grabbed my meditation cushion and my music. I put my hands into prayer pose and began...

“Ong namo…”

Boom. Whoosh.

A catapult released.

I soared up, up, up and out of my pit of despair.

Floodgates. I could hardly utter a sound through the tears.

After all the anger and bitterness I had been feeling toward God, there I was calling out, “I bow to you, Divine Teacher.” I sobbed as each repetition, each bow, drained all the pride and anger from my body and reconciled me with the One who could make me feel whole again.

I sobbed as I arched and breathed through “cat-cow,” finally laying my upper body prostrate on the ground, arms stretched above me. I bow to You. I surrender my bitterness. And the tears kept flowing as “ego eradicator” did its work.

Next, “Aap Sahaee Hoa” reminded me that God was not torturing me, God was my refuge and support in times of trial. I wept tears of gratitude for the grace I had been too blinded by bitterness to recognize.

Finally, I felt impressed to turn on “Come Thou Fount.” I tried to sing along but lost my voice to emotion. It was in this song-poem that I realized just where that catapult had sent me after I soared up and out of the pit of despair:

Come, thou Fount of every blessing,
            Tune my heart to sing thy grace;
            Streams of mercy, never ceasing,
            Call for songs of loudest praise.
            Teach me some melodious sonnet,
            Sung by flaming tongues above.
            Praise the mount! I'm fixed upon it,
            Mount of thy redeeming love.

Praise the mount! Redeeming love! With my feet upon that mount, I could breathe again. With my feet planted in love, I could see again.

As I tuned out and finished with three long Sat Nams, I remembered who I was. I am Truth. I do not belong to the darkness. I belong to the Longtime Sun/Son.

The burdens that had felt like a giant boulder weighing on my back only an hour before suddenly seemed light as a feather. I took that giant, weightless boulder off my back.

Here I raise mine Ebenezer;
            Hither by thy help I'm come;
            And I hope, by thy good pleasure,
            Safely to arrive at home.
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
            Prone to leave the God I love;
            Here's my heart, O take and seal it,
            Seal it for thy courts above.

“After a long period of sadness and trouble, a consequence of Israel’s disobedience, Israel repented . . . . God restored their political security, and the people, for their part, recommitted their hearts and minds to their Lord. Samuel placed a large stone at the place where this restoration began. He publicly dedicated it [Eben-Ezer] as a monument to God’s help, God’s faithfulness, God’s eternal covenant. And as the people got on with their lives, the stone stood there, visible to all who passed that way, a reminder of judgment and repentance, mercy and restoration” (Source, 1 Samuel 7:12).

Frolicking on the beach. 

Monday, April 21, 2014

Missionary Meditations

Sooo I have a missionary. It's been years since I wrote a missionary. It's so cool to email and get a response back in a few minutes (on a Monday at least). I'll call her Sister C. She is on the east coast right now where it is still probably cold. I started writing her after her mother called me and told me that she heard about my blog through her daughter who was on a mission who heard about my blog through some members. I guess her mission president lets her read my blog. She has been on an amazing journey learning about meditation while on her mission and she wanted her mom to order my book for her. I was sort of blown away and asked for her email to hear the whole story from her.

Sister C sent me these pictures today. One is of her teaching a member's daughter the "I am Happy Meditation." The other is of her and her super cool companion who is also on the Kundalini Yoga Meditation journey. I feel so blessed to be spreading the joy of this technology so far and wide and that it is being so wonderfully embraced by lovely, open, prepared minds and hearts everywhere. I can feel her growing power and grace just through her emails. She is going to rock the Northeast. Especially once she learns the mantra to open any door. :) I can't wait to meet her in real life soon.  

Monday, April 14, 2014

Free Live Streaming Full Moon Meditation - Tomorrow - Full Lunar Eclipse, Blood Mood

Tomorrow is a full lunar eclipse and a blood moon and Passover. If you would like to join me in harnessing this energy for positive change, I will be streaming twice tomorrow. Once at 10 am Pacific time and once at 7 pm. Pacific time. Here is the link. It's free. Just go to the link at the appropriate time. I'll stream for about an hour. Be prepared to meditate.

Sunday, April 13, 2014

My Astro Journey

Since my last post on Astrology I had some people share more cool links that I will share here in case you want to read along with me.

The Zodiac Testifies of Christ  (Awesome stuff. By John P. Pratt-- the same author of the 1985 Ensign article I posted quoted from in my last post)

The constellations testify of Christ  (also from same author)

The Coming Blood Moons (All the coming blood moons correlate to Jewish Holy days. Coincidence? "I will not forget my covenant people.")

It is interesting to hear how different people interpret the signs in the heavens and the constellations. I love that lots of this work has already been done. John P. Pratt's website is a treasure trove of articles. 

The one thing that I am trying to figure out is the line between astronomy and astrology. Here are some quotes on it from the LDS church website:

Astrology pretends to tell fortunes by deciphering the influence of the stars in people’s lives. Ancient civilizations were frequently deceived by the snares of astrologers. Enlightened members of the Church avoid these things, for they are of Satan.

Astronomy is the science that studies the stars—their creation and motion. The greatest astronomers of history have been prophets like Moses, Abraham, and Enoch. They received their knowledge from the Lord himself. (See D&C 88:41–47; Moses 1:27–39; Abraham 3:1–18.)

“The stars can’t control your acts. … God gave you free agency, and He does not allow even the stars to interfere with it. He is the Creator of the stars but He did not devise the peculiar cult of astrology” (editorial in the Church News, 14 Oct. 1972, p. 16)."--From YW Manual.

It is interesting that these all come from the Young Women's manual. It seems that young women are particularly suggestible to someone who might hold the key to their future or to their problems. So, let me be clear that I don't believe that the stars control our acts. However, I believe they are a reflection of what is going on on the earth, and a portent of what may be coming (if we don't use the energy properly) and the planets and starts and sun and moon, while they can't control our acts, they can influence us--just as everything can. A butterfly flaps his wings in China and it can change weather patterns across the world. A large scale trauma in New York can trigger PTSD in California. A bad hair cut, a lost pet, a vibration in the air. All these things influence us.

The full moon is an amplifier. It will amplify whatever we are experiencing. The moon reflects the light of the sun, which is the power of God, and when it is full, it is reflecting the most light, and when more light shines in the darkness, it's going to amplify and magnify what is there. Also, if it can raise the ocean levels 4 feet, you can bet it will bring up more strongly whatever emotions (the water element) are within you.

You do have agency though, so long as you haven't already given it away to Satan, which most people have without being conscious of it (which you can read about here) which is why they don't feel in control.

The point is, it's clear that Astronomy is from God and the cult of Astrology is not. But the line seems to be fine, and I'm walking it right now. I hope you know my intentions are pure.

The symbolism of Christ's roles in the Zodiac is pretty amazing to read about (the article is linked above) I invite you to read it. It's seriously mind blowing.

Now let's say that you were born under the sign of Libra (I am) and that represents Redeemer in Pratt's article. Knowing that this is your "sign" could be really cool and lead you to learn more about this role of Jesus Christ, who bought us back (hence the scales which represent payment). I think that is the great side of the line.

Here's where I am going next: I'm fascinated by the concept of the natal chart. The idea of the natal chart is that it is a snapshot of the constellations and planets at the moment and location of your birth. So far, that is just astronomy. What astrologers do is they look at this snapshot and attempt to interpret or predict a person's life based on the planets, where they are, and their aspects and angles to each other.

Here is a sample natal chart. This one happens to belong to President Obama.

Obviously birth dates matter. Almost every culture in the world celebrates birthdays. And as we know, God is the one who chooses when babies are born. Even though man may try to interfere, God is still in charge of the date and minute and latitude and longitude in which a baby is born.

Some astrologers will try to use the natal chart as the quote above states, as a way of fortunetelling and leading people far astray. But as I have studied this, I have discovered that there is another way to look at it, and it is that the natal chart may indicate a person's gifts, areas of particular challenge, and may give clues on how to successfully deal with these challenges, use gifts and stay on the divine path that was co-written by you before you were born.

When I think about Patriarchal blessings, they do much the same thing. Both are authored by God, who authored the stars and your time of birth. But the interpretation of said chart should be inspired, like a patriarchal blessing is.

I still don't know how to interpret a natal chart. I have learned a few things from Astrology 101, which is a basic intro to understanding and reading your own natal chart. But then I'd like to incorporate the symbolic roles of the savior that are evident in the zodiac into my understanding of the natal chart.  

If you don't know what the heck a natal chart is, you can get one free at lots of websites. Here is a good one:
www.CafeAstrology.com. But don't get sucked in and pay for anything. 

Another thing I want to share is from Yogi Bhajan, I don't have the exact quote, but he has said it more than once. He said that Kundalini Yoga is a science of angles and triangles. In astrology, squares are unlucky (I have SO many squares in my chart) but triangles are lucky. He said that Kundalini Yoga can dissect the squares, turn them into triangles and totally change a person's natal chart and their give them a destiny, where there was none. I have experienced this. My life used to have some pretty harsh aspects. Now I'm lucky to be walking a super awesome path of destiny. Wahe Guru! 

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Awake! Book Cover

Here is the official book cover. I just got it back from my designer. I am so excited, and I thought you might want to share in it. And then I thought you might want to donate to the project so we I can get it in your hands faster. If all goes well, it should be in your hands by mid June. Thank you to everyone who has donated, prayed, and supported in so many other ways. Sat Nam. 
Here is the link to donate http://www.gofundme.com/7srsk0

Thursday, April 10, 2014


A little more than a week ago I had the feeling that I should learn everything I can about astrology. Yes astrology. I have always dabbled in it and found it fascinating, but around Mormons and some others I never outright declared my fascination because it is considered a pseudo religion or even heresy. Well, I realized that that is kind of dumb. The idea that man is organically linked to the universe around him is not a bizarre idea or unChristian by any means. Astrology is just an attempt the understand the network of relationships between human beings and the heavens. This idea of a link between humans and the cosmos is too strong and too ancient and long lasting to ignore.

In fact, the latin root of the word temple (templum) basically means observatory. A place where man gets his bearings and observes the heavens.

Since the dawn of history human kind has believed in a watched for signs from God, both in nature and in the sky. Here are just a few scriptures that mentions stars as signs.

  • And there shall be signs in the sun, and in the moon, and in thestars; (Luke 21:25)
  • But, behold, I say unto you that before this great day shall come the sun shall be darkened, and the moon shall be turned into blood, and the stars shall fall from heaven, and there shall be greater signs in heaven above and in the earth beneath; (D&C 29:14)
  • And behold, there shall a new star arise, such an one as ye never have beheld; and this also shall be a sign unto you (Helaman 14:5)

Yes, the "wise men" who came from the East (India) to see Jesus were astrologers. They were wise as to the science of the stars, the prophecies, the scriptures and how they interplayed on the story of human history.

If you want to read more from the scriptures about planets and stars not just as signs, but as governing bodies, I strongly suggest you allow your mind to be blown as you read Abraham 3 and 4 right now.

Though astrology was once a widely accepted science, it has always fallen somewhere between science and religion and at different times in history has been nearly crushed out of existence by one faction or the other. But it has persisted against all odds and to the incredulity of many.

I was talking to a friend the other day about how some scientists I know scoff at the notion that planets and stars so far away could have any affect on us. She said, "Well I think Kolob is pretty far away, but it sure has an affect on me." I love her.

Last year I wrote a post about the new moon and it's Christian significance. If you haven't read it recently, I recommend doing so here.

What I didn't put in that post is that there is way more Christian and LDS scholarship on the moon cycles and a possible solar or lunar eclipse that happened on the day of Christ's crucifixion (which explains the blood moon). There is also an Ensign article from 1985 wherein an LDS astronomer points out some interesting facts relating to the planetary and moon alignments on the date of the return of Elijah and Priesthood restoration (Easter 1836). By synthesizing the science of astronomy with religious events and predictions, he is basically crossing the line into the science of astrology. Am I the only one who digs this.

Here are some of his mind-blowing points:
As an astronomer who has studied the lunisolar calendar, I was intrigued by Elijah’s return occurring not only during Passover week, as anticipated by the Jews, but also on an Easter Sunday that was calendrically similar to the proposed date of the Savior’s resurrection, being both April 3 on the Gregorian calendar and 16 Nisan on the Hebrew calendar.
Because of the relationship of Passover to the lunisolar calendar, Easter is usually the first Sunday after the first full moon on or after the spring equinox. Thus, the date of Easter varies from year to year, occurring between March 22 and April 25.
Accordingly, only about one Easter in thirty will fall on any particular day during that period, such as April 3. Moreover, not all Easters fall on the same day of the Judean month, but usually between 15 Nisan and 21 Nisan.
So, how often does Easter Sunday occur on both April 3 and 16 Nisan, as it did in A.D. 33? It happens less than once every century, on the average. The year 1836 was the only such occurrence in the nineteenth century. (Full article)
He goes into more awesome detail about why that date was significant. He doesn't do any future predicting, nor does he talk about Joseph Smith's natal chart as well he shouldn't in the 1985 Ensign. But I think the world is ready and hungry for it now. I still don't know everything, or much really, but I am learning and I'll share as I go from my Christian, LDS perspective.

Here is what I have for you for April:

Just as I embarked on my sort of haphazard study of astrology, I realized that April is one of the most astrologically intense months of the whole year. And in fact, two nights ago we had a rare alignment (or opposition rather) of Earth, Mars, and the Sun. This happens only once every 778 days. Mars represents anger and so if you have noticed within you or around you a lot of anger coming up, this would explain some things. 

 We are also moving into Cardinal Grand Cross that is causing a lot up upheaval, sudden change, and confronting death and rebirth stuff. When I use words like "stuff," it's because it is too much to explain and I still don't understand it totally, but I know it is truly affecting people. The cardinal signs will cross on the 15th so it will intensify as we lead into it, then should ease up afterward. 

Also, starting next Tuesday, April 15, there will be an eclipse that will create a blood moon effect. All of this celestial movement has even got the attention of the world news. Here is an article about the blood moons and how people are predicting end of days. Well duh. We know that. But there are other layers of symbolism as well. I'll get into that maybe next Tuesday. There will actually be 2 eclipses in April (one in southern hemisphere) as well as a meteor shower the 23 ish for a few days. So stars will be falling as well. Symbolic? Mean something? I think so. 

Well so what is the purpose, you might ask, of knowing about Jupiter and Mars and Venus in Aries?

Well, in ancient days, people believed astrology mostly related to Kings, because kings were considered the bridge between humans and God. Of course, Kings were human and not perfect and might occasionally err, and these royal sins were considered offenses against divine order, which would provoke retribution from God. Sounds like much of the Hebrew Bible. But here is the vital point: they believed that such retribution would not come without warning. The gods would use dreams, omens and other portents to warn the king of his misdeeds and of danger. Kings had whole cabinets full of people to watch the stars for him for such omens. Their second job was to instruct the king on what kind of rituals and things to do in order to cleanse his sins and avert the omen.

This scripture from Daniel is interesting:
There is a man in thy kingdom, in whom is the spirit of the holy gods; and in the days of thy father light and understanding and wisdom, like the wisdom of the gods, was found in him; whom the king Nebuchadnezzar thy father, the king, I say, thy father, made master of the magicians, astrologers, Chaldeans,and soothsayers;
The signs on earth just as those in heaven give us signals. So while all this celestial movement that has been intensifying since 2012 could induce fear and apocalypse mentality, it is a good sign for those of us who know what it means and how to use the intense energy to create really beautiful healing and change. After all, the definition of apocalypse is revelation. For those tuned into the right channel, we can hope for a better world. But you have to be tuned into that frequency. I recommend meditating like you mean it all of April and make sure you get some Kundalini Yoga in at least once a week.

P.S. If you know anyone who is super awesome at astrology and is willing to help me, I'd love to be connected. I don't care if they are LDS or not, I can make my own connections, but if there is an LDS astrologer out there I haven't met, please send them my way. Sat Nam 

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Free Ticket Giveaway

Sat Nam,

The Arizona Whole-istic Living Conference is coming up April 26, 2014 and I have two tickets to give away! Actually, there is a catch. I need help at my booth part of the day and during breaks, so I am looking to give them away to someone who can help me man my booth and who is a big fan of one or both of my books (the most recent one is not out yet, but you can still be a huge fan.)

So if you think you want to hang with me and other Whole-sitic people in Arizona in a few weeks, leave a comment about why I should pick you and if you don't already, like my Progressive Prophetess FB page, The Gift of Giving Life FB page, and tell all your friends about the conference.

Sat Nam! Here is the flyer.