Tuesday, July 23, 2019

What To Do About Jesus In the New Age


I want to share what I have learned from being in a new age spiritual community and also being a member of an organized religion in a cultural climate where God has become the G-word and Jesus is often associated with Piscean era patriarchy and fanaticism. The truth is, as we all know, lumping people into categories is easy but highly inaccurate. I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and also a kundalini yoga and meditation teacher in my community. For centuries these kinds of worlds had little crossover, but essentially, people in both were seeking the same thing. More light. More truth.



It’s not surprising the worlds are coming together in this new age with the world becoming so small and information so available. But there are still growing pains, especially for those who have a Jesus background and aren’t sure how to make the transition without throwing Him aside.

Communication is the trickiest thing in the world because most of us don’t really listen to what other people are saying but to what we think they are saying. I won’t go into all that right now. It’s a whole thousand hour course if it wants to be. It’s the course of our lives.

Here’s the gist of a pain point I hear a lot, from different sides. When people talk about great teachers like Mohammad and Buddha and Ghandi and they lump Jesus Christ in there as “one of the great teachers” a lot of Christians feel uncomfortable, at best. And from the other side—a lot of new age spiritual people like Jesus—they like him a lot—but feel like they have to like him secretly, or make sure to mention all the other cool guys out there too so no one feels left out or uncomfortable, or because they don’t want to be mistaken for some kind of person people can put into a neat little category.  

When you write about Christ-centered Kundalini Yoga, you get a lot of people confessing their secret love of Jesus to you. Some of them are turban wearing Sikhs. Some people were once raised religious in childhood and left it because of some pain, but they miss Jesus. Some grew up with no of religion but they have found Jesus or Mary or angels popping in all over in their lives, and they ask me a lot of questions about my experience with Him.

Some, like my husband, love Jesus and have thought of him as the savior, but have also studied world religions and seen so much amazing light in all and they don’t want to commit the Piscean error of tossing everything out that doesn’t fit the Christian mold.

He grappled with this a lot. Like me, he reads the Koran, the Bhagivad Gita, The Hebrew Bible, Buddhist texts, The Book of Mormon and just about any spiritual texts that we can get our hands on.

I personally have never had a hard time incorporating what I read to expand and deepen my faith in Christ. I have a special gift for it. But I realize that it is difficult for many people, so it has been interesting to watch his progression.

What he came to after studying all many religious is that all of them point to Christ, and none of these other great prophets ever claimed to be the Messiah or Christ. Buddha said that he was not the savior but that one would come and you would know him by his hands and his feet. Mohammad never claimed to be the savior. Muslim doctrine acknowledges that Jesus Christ was the son of God.

What we need to remember is religion has been through thousands of years under Piscean influence and also, there wasn’t much interaction between east and west during that time. Different religions have served different purposes in their particular place and culture and have prepared that part of the world for this future time—now—the Aquarian Age, where we are preparing to usher in the Age of Peace (1000 years of peace according to the yogis, and Christ’s 2nd coming and millennial reign according to the Church of Jesus Christ.)

So, just to reiterate what my husband realized it is that yes all those men and women were fabulous and none of them will be sad or jealous if we acknowledge Jesus Christ for being who he said he was and doing what he came to do, which they never claimed to be here for.

So if you want to know if Jesus matters, or if all these great teachers are saviors of men too in their own way—I would say: They are so awesome. But none of them ever said they were the one or that they were the way. I believe that the way, which Christ speaks of, is the way he did it—he achieved oneness with this Father and triumphed over death through prayer, study, fasting, years of deep meditation, cleansing and purification ordinances, things they called “the mysteries” (which we are learning now were actually secretly taught meditations and temple rites), and many other ways of being that we can emulate.

So can you be a Buddhist or a Muslim or a Sikh and follow Christ? I say Yes, why not? If you have questions that aren’t answered yet, just keep patiently searching and seeking.

My favorite commandment from Christ is this: “Follow me, and do the things ye have seen me do.”

If you are no religion do you need to go get baptized somewhere? That’s up to you and the power greater than yourself that I call God, but you just call whatever you feel comfortable. That power will guide you.

As a side note, I personally believe the word God incorporates the divine father and mother together so it is always both the woman and man. But everyone has their own relationships with the divine how they can. We don’t have the relationships we wish we had. We have the relationships we CAN with the knowledge and experience and skill and baggage we have at the time.  This is true for all our other work and our relationships as well. The spectrum of progression is vast and I have to trust that everyone is on their own path and journey and that God has them. Is holding us all exactly as we are, patiently loving us.  

Remember to be curious, calm, compassionate and content.

In Peace,

Nam Joti Kaur.


Tuesday, June 4, 2019

Photos To Love From Teacher Training

Last week I was in Bancroft, Idaho--which is pretty much the middle of beautiful nowhere (about 45 minutes from Pocatello and 7 minutes from Lava Hot Springs) hosting a Level One Teacher Training and training teachers in Kung\dalini Yoga as Taught by Yogi Bhajan. It was a amazing! So much spirit. So much fun! Such great people! The nearby hot springs were wonderful after long days of yoga and sitting and yoga and dancing. I haven't received all the pics yet but here are a few to show you how much fun we are having and all the beautiful shiny people who are transforming to become even more shining.

These are all out of order, but I captioned them so you can get an idea of what's going on.

Jumping Yoga. Group Photo minus a couple people who left early.
We are so happy we are levitating.  
My husband and daughter. Doing the training!

Visiting Trainer Guru Amrit Hari Kaur hugging Amarjot Kaur
Nabhi Kriya with Siri Marka
Alison (Tara Priti Kaur) visiting and teaching a class 


Gong is good. 

A civilized group pic. We had to concentrate to stay on the ground


Sharing the stage with Siri Marka

Group Photo before Guru Amrit Hari Left

Me and Siri Marka

Our beautiful location in Idaho
amazing beauty.
Youngest member of the group. Can solve a rubix in under a few seconds while doing yoga. 


Bancroft Idaho.


In Soccer, this is a classic move by Amarjot to block the ball from going under the wall. 
Amarjot Kaur listening to Siri Marka tell stories.

Our youngest teachers in training.

Lunch outside. 


Setting up the stage.


Guru Amrit Hari Kaur. Beautiful soul.


Sharing the stage with GAHK


Amarjot volunteered to be her knees.

Little visitors, along for the ride. 

Blissed out. 

Dance party.




Thursday, April 11, 2019

The Winners of the Raffle Are:

Last November I announced a raffle to encourage people to include their children and other young people they know in meditating.  And to make it fun. I got lots of pictures of people's kids meditating and families meditating. It warms my heart. I'm a month late in announcing the winners, but I believe in divine timing.

Here are the winners and what they won!


Robin Jones - $500
Linda Black - $75 credit for any Tree of Life Store Kundalini Yoga Series
Sharalun Chamberlin $50 Credit for and Tree of Life Store Kundalini Yoga Series
Catherine Dagsland $40 Credit for any Tree of Life Store Kundalini Yoga series. 

If you are a winner please contact me to redeem your prize. If you didn't know you entered this raffle then maybe you just have an angel who wanted to get your attention and so manipulated my random number generator. 




It's Spring! Update

It's spring! This was a long cold dark winter. It for sure has been for me, but it is in the dark that seeds germinate. I feel like that little seed that just burst forth. Yay! Spring is always my power cycle, but it is especially nice this year.

Since I added the Meditation for Cold Depression to my life, I have noticed a few things happening. Number one, things started dropping from my life. Lots of things. People, work, busy-ness, stress, my big house. In some cases it caused more stress because I was grieving the changes. But then I started to just let go faster because I could see how it was for the best.

For example, letting go of my big house was great! It was time to consolidate because I wasn't really using it for retreats anymore and it was just too big to clean myself and there were lots of other things going on there that were not sustainable. In deciding to leave and looking around at the market, I realized that my husband and I could buy a house. So we are in a really cute rental for now, but we are getting our stuff together to buy a house. In Southern California, as a self employed woman, this is a big deal, and I never thought it was possible.  But hey look! Pigs are flying all over the place.

I can't say it is only because of the meditation. Oh no! That is only amplifying some other things I am doing. There has also been a very conscious and daily effort to surrender my life and my will to God. Since last year, when I realized that my life had become un-managable, I had to remind myself (daily) that a higher power could restore me to sanity. And so I turned all my managing over to that power as I understand it. And let me tell you: it works.


What has happened is that things just start to happen way better and I just kind of breathe and watch and wonder in amazement. Something I wanted for 7 years and tried to make happen-- I finally gave it up and decided it wasn't right for me-- and within a couple weeks it came to me without effort. Seriously? Yeah.  (It's not a baby! Don't worry. I'm keeping no big secrets.)

Every time I feel that trying-to-make-things-happen tension in my body I breathe and give it up and trust and it usually works out way better in unexpected ways.

Here is an update on my life and work for those who care:

 I am feeling really healthy. All my blood numbers are totally good and I have energy and vitality just in time for spring and summer beach days. And I feel very mentally stable on a deep level. Like the level below where I felt good before. Way deeper. Deep Peace. In fact, my friend Michelle was in town last week and she said of all the time she has known me, I seem more content than ever before.

Some of you know my husband and I only live together part time. Well, he had an opportunity to apply for a job closer to us and we don't know anything yet, but it feels like maybe it's time to let my fears go about living with him more than part time. So if you want to pray for our highest good and happiness, I am grateful for your prayers!  We are in surrender to it.

My daughter went to New York for United Nations and came back all grown up. I am grateful for everyone who donated money to her campaign and helped her by buying her art.

I finished my 3rd semester paper for Grad school and am now writing poems like a mad poetic hatter and it's so wonderful to be creating. Poetry has this amazing ability to mend ruptures in our society and bring the song back into our lives.

I have stopped teaching retreats for a while, maybe forever, who knows, and I am just seeing some clients, writing poetry, sharing some of the wonderful natural health solutions I have found, and this year I will be training teachers.

The Level 1 Kundalini Yoga teacher training I am hosting and teaching in SE Idaho will begin May 27, 2019 and despite having my original team drop out, God somehow arranged for an amazing group of other trainers to come and join me. There are still a few spaces left for those who want to come to this amazing 220 hour training. It will deepen your practice, transform your life and give you the credentials to teach with confidence and grace. As a teacher you have the opportunity to help people live in a more exalted way. For more info you can go to my website. We also have an interest group on FB that you can request to join.








Thursday, February 7, 2019

Why I Almost Let Myself Die


There is a monster with no symptoms. It’s called Cold Depression. During my recent health crash I asked myself why I let me get into such a situation. Me! I’m intuitive, hyper mind-body connected, and aware, I thought. So how did I get there—not just the blood issue, but the severe nutritional deficiencies which were probably behind it all? The answer, I knew as soon as I asked, was cold depression.

Cold depression is not depression. Depression, or Major Depressive Disorder is simply defined as: low mood some, part, or all of the day, every day, for more than two weeks in a row. Depression is fairly easy to recognize by that definition, and one in four people have MDD at any given time.

Cold Depression is not well understood and not even known about by most of the behavioral health world, but it is even more rampant than depression.

Cold depression has no outward symptoms. Often, people with cold depression are happy, successful people, sometimes very high achievers and service oriented givers.
Out and about on my trip to Ireland

Here is how Shanti Shanti Kaur Khalsa PhD explains it based on the teachings of Yogi Bhajan.
Cold Depression is when the external demand is greater than the internal capacity to deliver and we have spent our reserves. We are depressed but we are so numb and insensitive to our own self, we do not feel it. The depression is therefore “cold.” This leads us to inner anger and isolation from our soul.
Cold Depression is when we are cut off from our spirit, source, strength, and inner guidance. At its core is a deep sense of loneliness, a prevailing sense of anxiety, and a loss of meaning. Yogi Bhajan called this, “The Silence of the Soul.”
We instinctively counter the numbness of Cold Depression with behavior that fulfills the need for stimulation. A person experiencing Cold Depression does not seem depressed to herself or others. This is because she is busy, active, and appears energized. She may overwork, create “emergencies,” or drink 6 energy drinks a day. He may engage in extreme sports, risk taking, or substance abuse. The insensitivity of Cold Depression leads to reactivity, impatience, and drama. Do you know anyone like this?
After reading that description you argue that you are connected to your soul. You are a yogi. You and God are one. Well I have news for you. Even deeply spiritual people often have cold depression, and in fact, I would say it is even more rampant among us folks because of the subconscious sadness about being separated from God. Being on this planet is tough. It creates a pain that is humungous and the subconscious wants to cover that gap. So we do, in all the ways above, and by meditating to bliss out and by overachiever/perfection addiction to feel like everything is ok. And at the same time, some of us even secretly sabotage our lives or health so we can exit the planet sooner. I’ll talk more about that in a minute.
Here’s more on cold depression:

What Causes Cold Depression?
Information overload, unrelenting stress, and rapid change contribute to Cold Depression. Bigger. Faster. More. These are all elements of modern life. The glandular and nervous systems of most people on the planet are not sufficiently developed to meet this challenge. When we don’t have the energy within, we seek it outside ourselves. We go for the rush.
Cold Depression is not just a personal challenge; it occurs across an entire population during global transition such as the one we are in now. When there is a major frequency change, Cold Depression can increase to profound levels, like a sudden tide. Yogi Bhajan said this “gray period” of the planet has occurred in the past, whenever there was an epochal transition.

I knew I had cold depression because I had secretly—I say secretly because it was secret from my conscious mind—neglected my health by resisting vitamins and supplements or not taking them consistently till I was dangling by an eyelash over the canyon of death. This is a secret strategy of many people with cold depression. They subconsciously try to exit. For example, a person might have a small pain that they don’t check out until it has grown to a stage 4 tumor and then die very quickly once it’s known. Another person might have back pain but instead of taking time off from helping and serving and heavy lifting they just take Tylenol or Ibuprofen—for years and years—and then one day they die of liver failure or kidney failure from taking so much pain medicine.

I have been talking about cold depression for a couple of years. I had a feeing I was the poster child for it a while back, and I took steps two years ago to take a lot of the stress off my plate. My life has been very sweet for the last 7 ish years. And it was hard to think that there was a disconnect from my soul. But after my health wake-up call I realized that there was more to this cold depression thing than I understood. So I started doing the Meditation for Removing Cold Depression, which I had never done as a consistent practice. I knew I needed to make it mine for a while. So I did. I stopped my other meditation and picked up this one.

Before you run out and try it, I need to tell you that it is a very powerful meditation. Even though it says you can work up to 31 minutes, it says to start with 3 and build up to that. I recommend heeding that caution. I did start with 3 but quickly increased to 11. I never went past 11 and probably won't for a while.
At first it was sweet. I felt the sweetness of life even more, and then I crashed and burned and felt like I was losing my mind. What was asymptomatic and looked nothing like depression started to look very much like depression and even a bit of anxiety. My body was almost completely better but my mental and emotional state was in turmoil. The mind just wanted to swing, and all I wanted to do was get away from the pain. Ultimately I just had to hold my grace and sit through it. I was super sensitive to everything. It felt a little bit like coming off of an anti-depressant, which I did many years ago.  A friend of mine is weaning off her anti-depressant now, and she is feeling similar things--sensitive and raw and realizing how much it numbed her to feeling things as much.

After lots of debate about dropping the meditation (because I was almost not functional) I decided to stick with it, but add in the one I had been doing before, because it has a very stabilizing effect. This worked. I felt lots better. I still struggled but I could function. So if anyone wants to learn from my experience, I would recommend not dropping your regular practice to do this meditation, just add 3 minutes of the Meditation for Cold Depression and let it work on you slowly.



In January I had the amazing opportunity to go to Ireland for a poetry residency and it was a dream. While I was there I felt so free of all the pain, and I felt so grateful and humbled and had a tectonic shifting of my priorities—more to my personal writing, my family, and simple living. This has been coming, but in Ireland I had the strength to finalize some decisions.

At the Joyce Tower in Ireland


I feel pretty sure that not being in my full creative expression for the last few (ok many) years has been at heart of my secret desire to leave the planet. A blocked creative, if blocked long enough, will eventually die inside and then outside… For me, creativity is a part of my soul. And that is where the disconnect—or not enough connection—was happening.

Panoramic from the cliff walk in Howth
So that’s why I’m not doing any more retreats. I’m facilitating a 200 hour kundalini intensive training this year in SE Idaho and then I’m passing the torch. I’ll still teach, I am just not going to travel any more for work after this year--at least that I know of--for the next seven years. 

Kundalini yoga is not the purpose of my life. It is a tool to support me in my life purpose. Right now the purpose of my life is living and writing poetry and my relationships with family, friends, clients and students. I feel radical acceptance for everyone’s journey. God is in charge, not me. Thank goodness.

Me and a writer friend in Howth thinking about doing a cold dip.

The Seamus Heaney Exhibit at the National Bank was lovely.



I’m going to keep up 3 minutes of the meditation for cold depression for a while. I don’t know how long, but knowing my tendencies and the world I live in, I think it will probably be with me for a while. I have some other changes coming but I am keeping them close to my chest for now. I’ll share them soon if you stay tuned. I also plan to do a webinar soon about all I have learned about health and healing.

Thank you for being led here and reading to the end. I hope something in here can help you. 

Blessings and Sat nam. Feel free to reach out at any time through the comments.