Friday, December 29, 2017

Update Post Apocalypse

This is a quick update. We got back to our home after the evacuation, but the air quality was so bad after a few days that we had to leave again.  I mean gray Zombieland air. It was like sitting in front of a campfire and it is blowing in your face and you can't go anywhere to get away from it. Did you know that bad air quality is directly linked with an increase in psychiatric ER visits? I totally know why. I was never so happy to go to LA and breath good old LA smog. 

So we left and came back a few times and had to leave again. I'm so grateful for the generosity of the friends who took us in multiple times.

The fire of transformation is so deep and swift. I feel like I went deep into the fire and burned and burned and burned everything I no longer needed, especially in my parenting relationship w my daughter, but other areas of my life, too.  Fire is so amazing. It reduces things to it's basic elements. We use it in ceremony. Fire drives us out, but it drives us in too. To each other.

When we finally came back for good it was a week before Christmas and there was a benefit concert my friends from Aykanna were playing in town and it was full of chanting and good vibes. I was a little surprised to see so many people all back and being their beautiful selves. It was so healing and I was super blissed out when I left. Fire is inevitable. Pain is inevitable. But bliss is inevitable too.

As a community now we are helping all of our neighbors to rebuild, to recover, repair, breathe deeply again. It will be interesting to see all the blessings that come from this. There may be greed and some craziness too, but for the most part, this is a community that helps each other.

Brittney finally got clean! The ash and dirt is under control for now so we got her a bath and hair cut.

I feel so much more depth of offering now. It's funny how that works. I have been blogging for years and if you have been following you can see my progression. And sometimes in the past I have been tempted to feel like I am done.. like I have reached the highest level of enlightenment I can reach. Ha!  Of course, there is no final level. The spectrum of progression is so vast and I just feel deeply in acceptance of this ongoing practice. Of faith. Of consciousness. Of parenting. Of healing.  And I am also in acceptance that sometimes even yogi goddesses need a place to go and heal. And I'm so glad for the people who opened their doors, and who prayed, and who smiled, and who sent things. 

And I want to open my home to any other yogi goddesses out there who ever need a place to go and heal for a few days. Wahe Guru House was always intended for just that. I am no longer using the house for retreats. I'll have those up the street at Spirit House. My house is now just for friends and friends of friends who need a refuge. And the cost is just willingness to heal.

Tuesday, December 12, 2017

The Five Stages of Grief and A Meditation to Stop Cosmic Distrubance

My daughter and I decided we had enough evacu-cation for one life and went back to our home in the still beautiful but charred hills of Ojai. It was early to go back. Many people are still scattered in all directions, but so many of us were itching to be home. To sleep in our own beds. To cry in our own pillows. To help out. To pretend life was back to normal.

At church

It's not back to normal. We have got the smoke smell out of the house but it is raining ash outside and we have to wear masks when we go out. It looks like snow on the mountains. Lots of stores are open but there are also a lot closed. There are some back fires burning on the hillsides and in the canyons (controlled) but it's fairly safe to be here.

We had so many miracles that saved our town. But the fires are still burning north of us now. And every thing is not the same. It's better in some ways. My neighbor came over to give me a hug yesterday and told me about all the miracles he saw this week. I didn't know he was a spiritual guy. The fire literally burned down to our neighbors property lines all around us. Some burned right up to their back steps and then stopped. And the greatest miracle was no life lost. 

I felt so happy and relieved when I first got home, but the next day I had a little melt down. It's the signs that get me. Every time I drive through town and see all the signs that say "Thank You Firefighters" or "Thank you for saving our town." I burst into tears. I am not sure why. Probably because I feel the same gratitude and I am touched by the humility of the signs. But it is sort of traumatic for me too because it reminds me of 9/11, which was a rough time for all of us, and it triggered a depression that lasted 2 years. Of course, I have a lot more tools now, but the mind is a funny thing. 
This is the smoke from a controlled back fire. 
I cried most of yesterday and I had one freak out where I expressed some anger at a woman in my ward for not texting me back. It was silly but basically I was crying for help. When I realized this I called a few people. When you call up a friend and say "I'm no ok," it's an act of bravery and vulnerability. Wahe guru. People want to help. They don't always know how, and not all of them have the bandwidth to help, especially if they themselves are freaking out. But here is what one friend said and what I recommend doing if anyone ever needs help from you. 

Immediately she asked me what remedies I had in the house. That's super smart. Take an inventory. We all have a ton of recourses but stress narrows our ability to see and remember them. I had millions of options in my cupboards. But here's what I highly recommend having on hand in case of an emergency: Some flower essences like Rescue Remedy-- because it works fast and it is safe to dose yourself every 15 minutes till you feel normal again. I didn't have Rescue Remedy but I had Star of Bethlehem. It's a Bach flower essence that lessens the impact of shock, grief or fright. Then I put my feet in water and grounded myself.

Once I was out of the acute stress, I was able to see clearly and pull it together. Today I feel pretty good again, though I haven't been out or seen any signs yet. 

I was reminded by another friend last night about the 5 stages of grief. I had forgotten those in the moment too. If you don't know them, they are: denial (shock) bargaining, anger, depression, acceptance. They don't necessarily cycle in that order and they can cycle through many times--not just once. Keep this in mind. Just because someone was okay yesterday doesn't mean they will be today. Check on people when you feel good. Dig deeper. If your heart tells you to go give someone a hug, do it. Also, if someone expresses anger toward you, it could be that they are in a stage of grief. Hold space for the anger but don't get sucked in or amplify it. 

Meditate. In times of emergency don't let your practice fall off. Keep up. Even the bare minimum, but don't let it drop. You are going to need stamina. 

And now it's time to stop these fires. Here is a meditation that Yogi Bhajan taught in 1978 that I think everyone needs to know in these times. They call it the Meditation for Atomic Radiation, but it does  more than that. Here are some of Yogi Bhajan's comments: 

This is actually the offering to God, and it's a most beautiful offering of prana. This mantra can stop the cosmic disturbance. In very, very old times when typhoons used to come, when destruction used to come from the heavens, people used to practice this mantra. When they would think there was no escape, they would sit down together, meditate and chant. Somehow the miracle of God, the hand of God would save them. This is the basic mantra. 

The instructions and a free MP3 download are here. I'm inviting you to do it today.  

Saturday, December 9, 2017

Imagination IS Everything

This is a repost of a repost. Because I think it is worth reading again. And I am hoping to inspire a few more people to take my upcoming imagery training and I am putting my prayers out to clear the path for those who are supposed to be in this group.

Imagination As The Key to Reality

"Gifted people are able to use their imaginations to create new things; both wonderful and terrible. Some people come to this earth with their powers of imagination already well developed, and I saw that some of them misuse that power here. Some people use negative energy to create harmful things--items or words that can destroy. Others use their imaginations in positive ways, to the betterment of those around them. These people truly create joy and are blessed. There is a literal power in the creations of the mind. Thoughts are deeds."
"I understood that life is lived most fully in the imagination--that, ironically, imagination is the key to reality."  Betty Eadie - Embraced By The Light

As a healer, one of my favorite modalities is therapeutic guided imagery. I guide the client into a peaceful, safe, trance state and then invite “images” to come. The journey is semi-guided. I am only the facilitator and I make sure the journey stays safe, healing and elevating. Sometimes we invite a guardian angel, an inner guide, or Jesus Christ himself, and the client describes what they are seeing so I can guide them to a therapeutic outcome. Sometimes we find a person’s inner control room and they go in and move some dials that control happiness, or physical pain. These imagery “journeys” as I call them, are in truth, visions. And anyone who has ever taken one with me or a similar facilitator, can vouch for this.

 When I was young I used to think that the visions Nephi or Abraham or Moses had were different than my own personal revelation. I used to think that when they were “carried away” on top of a high mountain, that they really were taken to the top of a mountain. The truth is, they were “carried away in the spirit,” and their bodies were usually still laying on their bed.

The Book of Mormon Prophet Lehi - "And it came to pass that he returned to his own house at Jerusalem; and he cast himself upon his bed, being overcome with the Spirit and the things which he had seen. And being thus overcome with the Spirit, he was carried away in a avision, even that he saw the bheavens open…." (Read the whole story in 1 Nephi 1)

Lehi's son Nephi, also a great prophet - "For it came to pass after I had desired to know the things that my father had seen, and believing that the Lord was able to make them known unto me, as I sat pondering in mine heart I was caught away in the Spirit of the Lord, yea, into an exceedingly high mountain, which I never had before seen, and upon which I never had before set my foot." (Read the whole story at 1 Nephi)

Lamanite King Lamoni - Fell to the earth and seemed dead for 3 days. When he came to he shared his vision and was a totally changed man and changed his whole kingdom. (Read the whole story in Alma 18-19)

Book of Mormon Prophet Alma - Fell to the earth and seemed dead. When he came to, he had seen a vision of Jesus Christ and was a totally changed man. Became one of the greatest leaders and spiritual teachers in the Book of Mormon. (Great story. Mosiah 27)

Biblical Prophet Abraham - “…the word of the Lord came unto Abram in a vision…” [this is when God promises him offspring like the sands of the sea.] (Gen 15:1)

Moses - Moses was caught up on “an exceedingly high mountain” and sees God “face to face,” God says “look and I will show you the workmanship of mine hands….” God shows Moses world without number. (Amazing vision: Moses 1)

Daniel, Ezekiel, Isaiah, Aaron, Miriam, Hannah, Mary....The list goes on.

If you look up Visions in the Topical Guide, you will also see many references to Dreams. While some of these scriptural visions that are called dreams may have occurred during REM sleep, many likely didn't, but dream was the best way they could describe it. Visions, like imagery journeys, often have a dreamlike quality—in that you are totally engaged in all of your senses, and it feels real.

The truth is, you are not engaged with the five senses of the physical world—or the natural man. There is a yogic saying that the five senses will always lead you into the illusion (or maya, as the yogis call it). But when you close your eyes and “imagine” using all of your senses, you access higher senses--which leads one closer to reality.

Many people get their best revelation when they are between sleep and wakefulness because it is only time they are quiet and restful and when what they know as "reality” is already blurry. A friend recently had a horrible fever that lasted for days, and she told me that when she was delirious she saw two angels standing beside of her taking all the bad stuff out of her and putting in sparkly stuff. (Her words.)  She wasn’t sure if it was real or if she was dreaming. I told her it was totally real. Angels are always around us doing the will of the Lord in answer to our prayers. She was just detached enough from this reality to see them. So if you have ever had an experience that you wondered if it was real, the answer is probably YES. (Unless you were smoking weed or something else, and then I can't vouch for your experience.)

The good news is that you don’t have to be delirious or even have your eyes closed to have a vision:
“And when Balaam saw that it pleased the Lord to bless Iseral, he went not, as at other times, to seek for enchantments, but he set his face toward the wilderness [meditation!].. and the spirit of God came upon him…[and he] saw the vision of the Almighty, falling into a trance, but having his eyes open.” (Num 24:1-4) 
When I guide my clients through an imagery journey, we are consciously choosing to leave the known world and enter a different state. This trance state is sometimes called “hypnosis,” named after Hypnos, the Greek God of sleep. This is a relatively new term for a state that has existed for eons--but it is a misnomer, because although a person in this state may look asleep, it is more of an awakening or enlightening that is happening. Some mystics called this state religious ecstasy.

In some of the above examples, the prophets were not seeking a vision. For example, Lehi was exhausted and was casting himself on his bed. Others were seeking revelation, and believed they could get it--like Nephi. Boy did he get it, and more.

Not only is it okay to seek for and ask for visions/revelation, but according to Joseph Smith, and the Bible Dictionary it is essential for our progression and “Without revelation, all would be guesswork, darkness, and confusion.” (BD)

….Continuous revelation from God to His Saints, through the Holy Ghost or by other means, such as visions, dreams, or visitations, makes possible daily guidance along true paths and leads the faithful soul to complete and eternal salvation in the celestial kingdom. The principle of gaining knowledge by revelation is the principle of salvation. It is the making known of divine truth by communication with the heavens… (Read full entry here.) 

When you go on a therapeutic imagery journey, it begins with the simple act of imagining. Imagination is sometimes thought of as child’s play. Indeed, we are commanded to become as little children. In my experience, it is through this relaxed and submissive state that we gain access to the higher self and higher realms.

As the journey progresses, the “images” that form and the communication that happens, ultimately does not come from your own imagination, but from a higher source. Clients feel this. And they want more. The truth is, we all need more of this.

The best thing about therapeutic imagery is that you don’t have to wait for morning. You don’t have to worry that they might be nightmares (they are always awesome and uplifting), and the interpretations/implications, are much more available to your conscious mind. They also change you. That is what the Holy Ghost does. It is a game changer.

It is through the power of the Holy Ghost that people are “carried away in the Spirit.” There are a few scriptures in 2 Nephi 32 that I love. The first one says "feast upon the words of Christ; for behold, the words of Christ will tell you all things what ye should do." A verse later it says “For behold, again I say unto you that if ye will enter in by the way, and receive the Holy Ghost, it will show unto you all things what ye should do.”

Seems redundant, but it’s not. The words of Christ will tell you what you should do. The Holy Ghost will show unto you what you should do. It is a perfect balance between what we can do (study the scriptures/words of Christ) and what God give us through grace and by the power of the HG which can communicate to us through our spiritual senses in vision, or in auditory visions, or whatever way we will understand.

Science has proven that we see less than 1% of reality. Prophets have also more or less told us this. So, for a year now I have been praying to see things as they really are, and my ability to see has grown exponentially. My daytime normal average is now 2-5% of reality but this is nothing compared to when I am in deep meditation or in a hypnosis imagery state, where I see about 40%+ of reality. (For real! And it's nothing like this reality.)

As I mentioned earlier, you don’t have to be on your death bed to have visions. You don't have to be suffering. You just have to be in an open and receptive state where you mind has let go of control and is basically like a child. Most people don’t know how to get to that state without going to sleep (or dying).

But I know how. And I know how to help people into that state easily. It begins, always, with imagination. Our imaginations are the key to so many things, not just revelation, but also to creation, and causation (causing things to happen). We are divine beings, whether we believe it or not and as such, whatever we create mentally, becomes reality—spiritually first, and then it manifests into physical reality later, in some form. (Many people use their powers of imagination for worrying. Worriers have great imaginations.)

The power of the mind and the ability to imagine is the basis for all energy/faith healing and the key to lasting change. For those who need help letting go of the distraction of the dishes in the sink, the background noise, the temptation of brownies baking, there are several things that can help. Meditation is one. Another is to have a trained guide or facilitator.

Unfortunately, not enough people have this skill or training. I think that it is more powerful than any of my other tools, except meditation, because it gives the power to the client and lets them have an experience all their own.

This has been gestating for a year or more, but I am now finally able to offer this facilitator training through an online platform so that students can take it from wherever they are. And the first beta group of students had just as an amazing experience as the live training. Actually, I might even venture that it was a better experience, because they had more time to process and digest it. So if you haven't heard yet, I am now opening it up to anyone who wants to learn and the next course begins Janaury 16, 2018.  There are no pre-requisites required, only an open heart. I would also love to invite all licensed therapists and others already working in the healing arts to do this training and become a therapeutic imagery facilitator. 

 I have both taught at an accredited college of hypnosis and trained all kinds of people in imagery from gang members to large groups of therapists. I have a payment plan and early bird pricing, so be an early bird. The next incremental price increases are Dec 15 and Dec 30. 

Here is the link to register now.  There is so much healing available to you through this course, and to others through you.

Register Here Now!

Friday, December 8, 2017


Monday night of this week I evacuated my home because the entire ridge behind my house was on fire. I have lived in Southern California most of my life. I have lived through and witnessed all kinds of natural and un-natural disasters:  earthquakes, floods, fires, mudslides, as well as drought, inflation, recession, riots, and whatever else you can name. So I don't get too worked up about stuff. I know that it will pass. I also know that while it can seem Biblical and apocalyptic on the news, it's not always that bad on the ground.

This case, however, was the first time I actually had to leave my house and didn't know if it would be there when I came back. I felt deep down it would be okay, but the feeling wasn't related to whether my house was there or not. It's nice to look around the house and know that you aren't attached to much. I grabbed was my computer, phone, a change of clothes, 3 pairs of good shoes and my daughter and my dog and some dog food and toiletries for one night. I didn't think it would last more than one night. 

Four nights later we are still not in our home. There were several nights when the fire was burning 100 yards from our house and I was mentally prepared to go back to ashes. But as of today the news is that my house is still there, and will likely be safe if the winds stay low. However, many friends lots their homes, and at the time of this writing my town is still surrounded by fire on every side.  There is so much collective grief and uncertainty. It has been interesting to see how everyone is handling it. My people are all scattered to the winds.   

In the moment of decision to leave, it was my kundalini family that reached out first and took us in. I am so grateful for them and for everyone who reached out. 

There have been so many hearts turned our direction and so many prayers and meditations and miracles and I know it's because of this. 

All I can say right now is that I know that God only wants to bless us. This is my firm belief. He said to me the morning after when I was walking my dog around the Motel 6 in Carpenteria, "I will never kick you while you're down."  

So although we don't know how yet, this is a huge shift and change for many people that will ultimately be the blessing they have been wishing for. I will say I felt it coming. Not this exactly, but something that would call everyone back to themselves. Selfishness and suffering has been on my mind lately, and this disaster has brought many people out of their own selfishness to open their hearts and help each other and pray for each other. People I didn't know prayed have been telling me they are praying for us. 

When I moved into my house a year go, I intended it as a place of refuge for people who needed healing. I call it Wahe Guru House. I have used it for a few small retreats, but recently I was wondering when it would fulfill its true destiny. It looks like it will soon. So many many people are without homes. The numbers are much higher than the news has shared. My inside sources told me two days ago the numbers were more than 400 homes. We don't know the final count yet. But I will be taking people in if I can and helping out as much as possible. If you would like to help I'm sure we won't turn down any offers. I don't know the actual needs yet but I assume money, food, blankets, clothes, feminine products will always be needed. 

For now I am with friends in Los Angeles breathing sort of clean air and getting to spend time with friends who I don't always see. I am overwhelmed with gratitude for the the people who are working night and day trying to contain the fires and save the lives of people and animals. So far no life lost. Another miracle. Keep praying for them and for rain. The air quality is super smokey in all of the middle coast. It's like the inside of a casino in the 80s.  Rain would be so healing.

Love and blessings. May all your prayers come back to you 100 fold.