Friday, November 29, 2013

The New Moon and Its Significance

New Moon

On a whim I taught one of my meditation classes about new moon intentions. It was because the first day of the class happened to fall on the new moon. I happened to record this session of classes and it is now part of my introductory webinar. This was just an intro exercise while we waited for people to arrive. I love doing new moon intentions and so I thought, why not? It’s good to write intentions once a month. And I knew the new moon was a powerful time to plant seeds (farmers have known this for centuries) so why not plant seeds in the subconscious mind on that day, too. Other than that, I had no other reason for mentioning this. I am not an astrologer, although I find celestial movement fascinating and love to hear what astrologers think about it. (Astrology is, after all just an attempt to make some spiritual sense of astronomy—as the 3 wise men were doing back in that day—Before the Christian Era.) But I recognize that most orthodox religions think too much star-gazing (astrology) is heresy. So let’s just say that while I like it, I don’t arrange my life by the stars.

You can imagine my surprise to find an entry in the LDS Bible Dictionary under “New Moon.”
The law appointed that at the new moon special sacrifices should be offered (Num. 10:10; see also 1 Sam. 20:5–6, 29; 2 Kgs. 4:23; Amos 8:5).The prophets often speak of “new moons” along with “Sabbaths.” As the days for all Jewish feasts were reckoned by the moon, the exact time of the appearance of the new moon was of great importance. Watchers were placed on the hills around Jerusalem, and watchfires on the hilltops told the news to distant cities. It is said that the Samaritans, in order to cause confusion, lighted fires on their hills at wrong times.
moon phases

[By the way, if you don't know, the new moon is the phase when the moon is dark and the first crescent starts to show. It is the time when your energy is the lowest (full moon is highest) and therefore a good time to go inward and evaluate, etc.] 

After I accidentally found that entry in the Bible dictionary, I read all the scriptures I could find on this and and even did some searching on-line, which I almost never do because there are so many crazy things on line, but here are some of the gems from my research:

Backgroud: Before the 4th century, the Jewish calendar was not fixed, but rather, was based on the cycles of the moon, which happen every 29 to 30 days. The new month was determined by observation. When a new moon had been reported by enough reliable witnesses, the court would declare a new month and fires would be lit on the mountains that surrounded Jerusalem. These signal fires would been seen by neighboring cities, where more fires would be lit, until news of the new moon spread "like wildfire" from Israel to the Diaspora. Rosh Chodesh is the celebration of the new moon and a time of renewal, commemorated 11 times throughout the year. Witnessing the new moon was replaced in the time of Hillel II (358-9 CE) with astronomical calculations and the present Jewish calendar. Rosh Hodesh Study Group in Columbia, MD)
A thousand years after its revelation, observance of Rosh Chodesh was forbidden during the Syrian-Greek persecution along with the Sabbath and circumcision. The grouping of Rosh Chodesh with these essential commandments indicates its importance. Since Jewish festivals were entirely calendar based and the calendar required witnessing and proclaiming the new moon, without the calendar there would be no festivals.

The new moon seems to have been a time to present burnt offerings:

"At the beginning of your months you shall present a burnt offering to the the beginning of your months, you shall blow the trumpets over your burnt offerings and over the sacrifices" (Numbers 28:11;10:10). See also I Chronicles 23:31;II Chronicles 2:4;8:12-13;31:3;Ezra 3:5;Nehemiah 10:33).

As Christians, we no longer offer burnt sacrifices, but offer our selves as living sacrifices. (Romans 12:1).  

Although there is no command to cease from work on a new moon day, some scriptures allude to the fact that the Jews could not sell on those days (Amos 8:4-5)

The apocraphal book of Judith (chapter 8, verse 6) indicates that fasting occurred on new moons. And other scriptures refer to feasting on a new moon. (I Samuel 20:24).

Isaiah (66:23) mentions that the new moons will be observed in the future, after Christ comes. Ezekial 46:1-3 mentions this too:

The agate of the inner court that it shall be opened, and in the day of the new dmoon it shall be opened. And the prince shall enter by the way of the porch of that gate without, and shall stand by the apost of the gate, and the priests shall prepare his burnt boffering and his peace offerings, and he shall worship at the threshold of the gate: then he shall go forth; but the gate shall not be shut until the evening.
 Likewise the people of the land shall worship at the door of this gate before the Lord in the sabbaths and in the new moons.

All of this gets me thinking that there is something more special about the new moon as well as the Sabbath/s that we don’t totally understand. It seems to me that if we are seeking Him, there is special opportunity on the Sabbath and the New Moon, when He "opens the gates to the inner court."

There are a whole group of Kundalini meditations that can only be done on the new moon, and I have often wondered why. Now I think I am getting an idea. 

As Latter-day Saints, we do not officially observe the new moon, but if you want to experiment with writing new moon intentions, or fasting, meditating, or observing this day in your own way each month, I think it might have exponential power of awesomeness. It would be another way to remember God each month. And hey, it doesn’t involve getting your children dressed in their Sunday best by 9 am.  

Above are somebody's fancy looking new moon intentions that I stole off of Google images. In reality, I don't think you need to make them pretty (it's funny that one of her intentions was to SIMPLIFY. Ha!) or even look at them often after you write them. Just write them and the seeds are planted. I usually encourage people to start their sentence with "I am easily finding myself......" and finish the sentence 10 different ways. These intentions/wishes can be specific or general. 

I usually find that by the next time I go to write my intentions, everything I wrote has come to pass or was replaced by something better or if it is a longer term project/thing, it is going along well and progressing. 

Feel free to share your comments or experiences with new moon intentions or anything new moon related. Oh and by the way, the next new moon is in just a few days (Dec 2) and the one after that just happens to fall on New Years Day. Sat nam. 

Post Script: If you are interested in reading a really cool, deep article from the Ensign about some astrological and calandering specificites related to the time of the restoration of priesthood keys, here are links.

The Restoration of Priesthood Keys on Easter 1836, Part 1: Dating the First Easter
The Restoration of Priesthood Keys on Easter 1836, Part 2: Symbolism of Passover and of Elijah's Return

Sunday, November 24, 2013

A Dry Nest

My friend sent me this email a few weeks ago. I love everything about the email and the poem, so I thought I'd share:

"Poetry is sweeter to me now. Jack says it’s because I’m “enlightened”… and I agree. This one is just lovely. It made me think of you, and your journey to Ojai …"



Like a bird grown weak in a land

where it always rains

and where all the trees have died,

I have flown long and long

to find sunlight pouring over branches

and leaves. I have journeyed, oh God,

to find a land where I can build a dry nest,

a land where my song can echo.


-Emanuel Di Pasquale


Thursday, November 21, 2013

The Ghosts Are Gone

I live on a unique and beautiful piece of property in Ojai that has been owned by some members of the church for about 4 decades. Everyone in town knows the house. Well, everyone who is Mormon, at least. And almost everyone, if they get you alone, will tell you it is haunted. I first heard about the ghosts from some kids. Then from some respectable adults, some were relatives of the owners and had lived in the house. The landlord has never told me any stories herself, but I have heard about her personal experiences with the ghosts through her daughters-in-law and others. I knew going in that the place might actually have ghosts, but I never got a bad feeling about it, so I moved in.

There were ghosts--11 of them, to be exact, that were permanent residents. Here is the story of how we got them to go.

When I first moved in, I made sure to smudge the house and pray for protection and cast out any devils or wayward spirits. I didn't really notice anything energy wise, so I assumed that they must all be on the other side of the property (the property is sort of divided in 2 segments). The other side of the property did feel different when I walked there. I didn't figure out why till recently. Do you remember when I first moved in and I had an ant invasion that felt like more than a normal heat wave related ant problem. God recently informed me that it was more than that--there were ghosts in here riling up and and marching the pests against me. And when I asked everyone to pray for our house that day, it not only sent the ants away but it also put a shield of warrior angels around the house. Since then, this side of the property has had no ants or ghosts.

The other side of the property (the big house, as we call it) is currently empty, and has been a little mysterious to me. I didn't think about it much till recently when I received the spiritual gift of being able to tune into the land in various places and assess its vibration on a scale of 1000. (1000 being like the temple. Lower than 100 and things start to fall part.)

I realized that the land on that side of the hill was a much lower vibration than this side. And I realized that the Ghosts were attached to the land, not the house. This made sense to me. I always wondered why a good LDS family with tons of priesthood holders couldn't get rid of the ghosts. Perhaps it is because they were just using their tools on the house. I don't know.

The point is, I got the inspiration to walk around the property and chant "Akal." Akal is the Kundalini mantra that is chanted after someone dies to release their spirit. Usually this is done soon after a person has passed.
I have always liked this practice. It has a nice sort of lamenting cry to it, but in a nice way. I never really thought about what it does or how it works though, until last week. This mantra, like other Kundalini Yoga mantras, is a technology, and what this sound current does is open the matrix (that is the best way to explain it).

When people die, the matrix is naturally open for a little while but if they decide not to go to the light, then it closes and they become earthbound--ghosts, essentially.

Some spirits stay because they have addictions and want to fulfill them through other mortals by jumping in their bodies whenever they get the chance--I call these unclean spirits.

Others, often those who die suddenly or brutally, are too shocked to believe they are dead and so don't go to the light. And many Native American spirits don't go to the light because they are afraid that they will become the light and that their own identity will be absorbed and they will cease to be.

I had the feeling that 3 of my ghosts would be willing to go if the matrix was open. So I chanted Akal as I walked around. I felt like I need to walk around, rather than just sit and chant it in that direction because I felt like there was something about me being a covenant keeper and having my foot chakras open that would help heal the land. I kept thinking of one of my favorite scriptures: "how beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of them than publish peace..."

After I did this I called a friend who is intuitive and she verified that 3 had gone. Woohoo!

I wasn't sure what to do after that, but a few days later, the answer came. I got the feeling that 5 of the ghosts might also go to the light if they had more information. The inspiration was to teach them or have them taught the basics of God's plan of salvation/happiness. I was doing a final relaxation after 8 hours of meditation when this revelation came me. So I had plenty of time to think about this. At first I was amused imagining how this would go down.

Me shouting to empty space in courtyard: "All ghosts who would like to learn more, please meet here at 3:00." Then a phone call to the missionaries: "Hi Elders, I have some investigators who would like to Meet me at 3:00 and I'll introduce you."

It was funny until I realized that this is really what God wanted me to do. Then I started to think of all the reasons this was not going to be funny. I started freaking out a little. Then God patiently invited me to "Keep calm and watch. It's happening now."

So I watched, and I understood that I had in fact called some spirit missionaries to come to the courtyard and teach the spirits that were ready to hear them. Again the lesson that imagination is more real than "reality."

I watched and I noticed that not only was my spirit/consciousness there--I was not out of my body, let me be clear, but my consciousness was there--but so was my daughter's. I watched my little girl's spirit/consciousness bear testimony to the little girl ghost about Heavenly Mother, who was a nice mommy an was waiting for her.

It all happened fast and at the end I knew that all 5 were ready to go to the light once they had the opportunity and all I had to do was chant Akal again when I got home, which I promptly did.

The final 3 earthbound spirits were not happy about all this. They were dark and pretty nasty. I knew casting them out would only work for short periods of time and that they would keep coming back any chance they got. So I asked God if there was a way to send them away permanently. The answer I got was that I needed to do a healing meditation for the land itself and raise its vibration to a level where the ghosts would no longer feel comfortable and would have to leave. I decided to this on Saturday, the day I had some friends coming over and make it a healing circle and I also decided to invite angels to join us in the circle. Till then I asked for special protection from the nasty residents over there. I was protected, but lets just say that they weren't happy about the whole thing and were shaking things up a bit over there.

When Saturday came my two friends and I found a patch of grass on the West side of the big house and chanted the Ra Ma Da Sa Sa Say So Hung healing mantra. When we first sat down I could feel they were there and didn't want us there, but they couldn't really do anything about it. We asked that the effective of our blessing meditation to be increased by 1000 times or more and we asked for angels to join us. They did. It was awesome. When we were done, the ghosts were gone and the entire property is now vibing at even higher than the local average, which is pretty high for planet earth right now. I live in a great place.

The next day I went to church and was thinking of the events of the week before and I started to have some doubts. I know how crazy all this sounds to some people and I started to wonder if maybe I was just a crazy person who had gotten all my friends to participate in my delusion. Just as I was having this thought, the speaker read this scripture:

"If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive sin, and will heal their land."  2 Chronicles 7:14

It was a nice second witness.

How to do a Healing Meditation

There are several different healing meditations that use the healing mantra RA MA DA SA SA SAY SO HUNG. My favorite is done this way:

Assuming you have already tuned in:

You can sit alone or in a circle if doing a healing circle. Left hand goes to the navel. Right hand is up like you are taking oath. Then as you chant the mantra you progressively push your hand forward until the elbow is straight and the palm is facing down. You can imagine that the person or situation that you are sending healing to lying in front of you. Or if they are present, they an lie in front of you or in the middle of the circle as you do this meditation. After the last syllable of the mantra, inhale and bring the hand back to the starting position and begin again pushing the hand forward and out. A great version of this mantra is on Snatam Kaur's Grace Album.

This mantra is one of the most powerful mantras in Kundailni Yoga. You can read more about it here.

If you have a comment you'd like to share, please do so here and not just FB (both is okay), because then I won't loose them.  Sat Nam.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Project True Love- Phase 2

Today when I was meditating God let me know that I have finished phase 1 of Project True Love. I thought I finished that phase two weeks ago, but He gave me one more thing to do, and today I realized it was done. And I feel great!

That means that I now move for real to phase two. Phase two involves dating lots of men. Not for the purpose of finding true love, but for the purpose of opening up the space, being the feminine energy, seeing the good, and being triggered and provoked to growth in ways that I can't bring about on my own.

I will attempt to explain.

I believe we are put on this earth to develop spiritually, and most of that growth happens through our relationships with our family, friends, boyfriends, spouses, ex spouses and others. We can an only grow so much on our own. Because of my recent transition, most of my current relationships include women, children, and married men (friends or professional). So I look forward to the growth and insight that dating can offer. When future phases come, I'll look forward to a dating just one person. But for now, phase 2, I am sending out a request to all my friends or readers who would be my friend if they knew me. I am looking to be set up with LDS men of any age, any race, and any level of enlightenment, so long as they are male and breathing. (Remember this is not to find true love. It is an exercise is dating. And it should be fun and there is no pressure for a commitment or second date required.)

One thing I should mention is that I prefer to be the feminine energy. That means that I won't ask anyone out, so don't send me anyone's number. He needs to ask me out and pay (oh and did I mention cherish my feelings?.) In return, I promise to be a fun date. I can't promise I won't blog about it. Nor can I promise I will.

BTW, my friend Tamara wrote a great book on dating that inspired me in phase two a few years ago. It's called 31 Dates in 31 Days. It's brilliant. She even mentions me in her acknowledgements. Although I didn't play that big a role in the book. Here are some rules inspired by her:

1. Spend at least 31 minutes together.
2. Must take place in a public place.
3. No kissing.
4. No second dates till Phase 2 is over
5. No meeting my daughter till phase 3.5. So please don't ask.

Oh yes. There is this matter of geography. I live in Ojai. It's a great destination if you are willing to travel or know how to teleport. If so, I would really love lessons.

Sat Nam.

Post Script
I forgot to mention that it is really fun to do PTL with other people and learn and grow from each other's insights. Part of my official PTL program includes hypnotherapy, affirmations, energy work, assignments, accountability, and group discussion. If you want to be part of it let me know in the comments or send me an email so can give you more info. Or you can just follow along in my journey online.  Sat Nam

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Why Don't We Learn About This Stuff in Church?

I get quite a few questions from religious people who are drawn to/guided to what they would call New Age/Metaphysical things like meditation, yoga, energy healing, etc. but who wonder if they are doing something wrong. They wonder if all this stuff is so great, then why don't they hear about it at church. Why don't we hear about chakras and auras at General Conference? Why didn't Joseph Smith teach us about yoga?

These are good questions so I thought I would address them.

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is now a global, world-wide and growing church full of lots of brand new baby converts. Most of the church membership is outside of the US. Most do not have Mormon Pioneer ancestors. Most do don't have stereotypical Utah Mormon cultural heritage/baggage. However, even in Utah I don't find anyone who fits a stereotype except on a surface level. Deep down, each individual member has their own strengths, concerns, weaknesses, troubles. The Gospel of Jesus Christ is very simple and it is for everyone. The role of the church is to teach these simple and true foundations of the gospel and to help people enter into covenants with God. It is essential to have a foundation and covenants are essential.

However, once that foundation is laid, there is more for those who will seek it--but those steps are personal. Paul discussed this in his letter to the Hebrews:

"Therefore not leaving the principles of the doctrine of Christ, let us go on unto perfection.(Hewbrews 6:1, Joseph Smith Translation)

This means that we don't leave the basics behind. But we can and are invited to go beyond and learn the mysteries of God. We do this by studying with Him personally and following personal revelation and having an open heart. 

Here is a great scripture from Matthew 13
And the disciples came, and said unto him, Why speakest thou unto them in parables?
He answered and said unto them, Because it is given unto you to know the mysteries of the kingdom of heaven, but to them it is not given. Therefore speak I to them in parables: because they seeing see not; and hearing they hear not, neither do they understand. (Matthew 13: 10,11,13) 

 In these scriptures Jesus is basically saying “Because you—who are ordained my real disciples and who are living a spiritually disciplined, consecrated life according to my teachings—because you have meditated and gained inner awakening, you deserve to know the mysteries of God. But ordinary people, unprepared or unwilling are not going to be able to comprehend or practice these deeper truths. So I give it to them in symbolic stories with many layers and each can glean what they will.  And if they apply it, they will make some progress.”  He was being merciful and also realistic.

That’s my interpretation. Not everyone will have the same interpretation. 

But basically the gist is that they were asking this question because Jesus didn't speak to them in parables. He gave them the good stuff. And He will give it to you if you go to him and if you learn to perceive things through your spiritual eyes and ears (called intuition). This awakening is pretty amazing. And if you read the scriptures or listen to Conference talks with your awakened intuition, you will find that there is a lot said about meditation, chakras, mantras, energy healing, etc.  It's there, I promise. 

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Earth Battery

My daughter goes to a homeschool charter where she takes enrichment classes and gets to socialize and we totally love it. Today was open house and some kids shared stuff they have been doing at home or in classes. This kid shared his dirt battery and showed us how it powered an LED light. I was kind of amazed. The earth really can give us everything we need.

If you are into emergency preparedness or just want a cool science project you might want to look into dirt batteries. :)

Sunday, November 10, 2013

2 Thoughts On Sunday

I Finally Understand Tratakam Meditation

Yesterday I spent 8 hours meditating in a ballroom at UCLA with 500 other yogis.
White Tantric Yoga is an all day meditation thing that is in the lineage of Kundalini Yoga but a little different. I can't go all into it because it is hard to explain, but it is an awesome once/year event that I was lucky enough to find a babysitter and go to. It is said that one day of white tantric yoga will elevate and purify you the same as if you had spent 10 years meditating in a cave.

So even though 8 hours might seem like a lot, it's pretty fast to get such amazing benefits. As part of the meditation/s we did, we had to look directly into our partner's eyes the whole time and then we had to talk to them and access our progress. We did this repeatedly for hours, but they flew by. It was awesome. After about 3 hours I started to see the resurrected Lord Jesus Christ in my partner's face, and in everyone's face. This was part of my intention for the day, but wow, there is nothing like experiencing it. I finally understand tratakam meditation now. Tratakam meditation is when you take a picture of someone, a saint or your teacher and you meditate by looking into their eyes unblinkingly. In my teacher manual, there is a picture of Yogi Bhajan that you can use if you want to do this, and I have always found it very bewitching photograph. Not in a bad way thought--something deeply pure in his eyes frequently called me back to it.

But I didn't feel right about meditating for a long period of time looking at him when I am supposed to be a Christian. It felt sort of like guru worship. Well now I get it. And it's not about that at all! It is about staring into the soul and seeing. The other person is really a perfect mirror. You could use any nice person's picture that you are drawn to, I suppose, and even yourself in the mirror. Of course, it would be awesome to spend time looking in the eyes of the real resurrected Lord Jesus Christ, but if you believe his teachings, He is in us and among us.

I'm not sure I am explaining this well because I don't think one can-- it is totally experiential. So if you can get someone to do this with you, just sit and look into each other's eyes for a few minutes, while breathing deeply. If you tune in first though it will be a more meditative experience. So try it and let me know!

Me and my partner for White Tantric Yoga
About Soul Mates

Sweet Kristin emailed me a question about soul mates and wanted to know what I thought. She believes in them, yet there is this little quote from the prophet Spencer W. Kimball from the 70's/80's that is conflicting to her:
"'Soul mates' are fiction and an illusion; is certain that almost any good man and any good woman can have happiness and a successful marriage."

Here is what I think about about soul mates and that quote.

I think the best definition of soul mate I have ever heard is that a soul mate is anyone you have known at a previous place and time (pre-mortal life?). So in truth we have many soul mates, both male and female. For example, all of my book collaborators are my soul mates. One of the men I married was a soul mate. Many people have enemies that are soul mates. Just because you feel that deep soul mate connection with someone does not mean that they are your marriage partner.

Yogi Bhajan said that there are no soul mates. He said the soul has many mates: the physical body is a the soul's mate, as are the mental bodies, the etheric bodies, the prana, etc. And then, like any great master, he also contradicted himself and gave us the shabd (sound current/mantra) to call the soul mate.

At the time President Kimball made that famous statement, there was a popular cultural notion going around that souls were created and then split in half and you were only half until you found your soul's mate. Many people were making interesting choices based on this notion. I think that Yogi Bhajan was speaking to a similar crowd.

The truth is, each soul is created individual and is whole on it's own. However, we do need other people and we are all here to help each other and grow together. I personally believe that some people make covenants to find each other in this life and support each other or help each other learn a specific lesson. Some patriarchal blessing speak of this. Sometimes this is why we are guided to certain people and places. But sacred contracts can play out in many ways, not always through a romantic relationship.

I would also like to point out the "almost" in SWK's above quotation. I don't believe he was suggesting that everyone just pair up with their neighbor and if everyone is righteous it will all work out (although that is so key to everything). I think his message was really to let go of the thought that 'I married the wrong person' (rampant excuse in the 70's and 80's) and to let go of the fear of choosing the wrong one, or the need to try out everyone. I think he was also hoping to get people to dispel the idea that a soul mate would be easy to get along with and they would be everything a person wanted.

In summary: if you believe in soul mates, great. Just expand or shift your understanding/definition of them if you need to so that it does not hamper your ability to live righteously and move forward with faith. And if you are looking for and praying for a soul mate, don't just pray for a any old soul mate--pray for the most compatible soul mate in the appropriate sex, to come to you, and any other detail you wish for, and then leave it in the hands of God while you work on yourself and follow personal revelation. And if you are with someone already, just commit to the fact that they are your soul mate, and stop thinking that maybe there is something better.

Sat Nam.

Friday, November 8, 2013

Project True Love Reprise

It is time.  I keep getting messages from my Romance Angels. Did you know there was such a thing?  

I am not the type to move on quickly. Or I didn't used to be the type, years ago. But I am different now even than I was a year ago. It feels like lifetimes have passed in the last year. Perhaps it is my daily practice of communing with God every morning that has helped me to heal so deeply that I am more whole than when I began.

So, I am officially announcing that I am starting project true love (PTL) again. Last time I did PTL it was a carefully planned 5 phase project, which sort of took a life of its own around phase three. This time I have allowed God to guide it from the beginning. Yes it has already begin. It began in July, when I officially put my healing in His hands.

PTL, as I learned last time, is not about finding true love (although that was the outcome); it is about going deep within, facing things, loving yourself, and healing yourself so that you can love and trust others and attract someone as equally whole.

I know some of my friends (and readers who become friends), would love to see me happy and "lucky in love." I am so honored by your love for me. But I want to tell you that I am happy, and every day I thank God that I am in love. That may not make sense, but I think it is key to happiness no matter what your relationship status.

Somewhere, making his way to me, there is a most compatible soul mate, that I can respect, and who has the capacity to love me and Phoebe in such a way that we can become even better.

So, feel free to congratulate me now, because, in a Bill and Ted's kind of way, it has already happened.

BTW, the best way to set me up on dates is not to message me telepathically but email me. :)
Sat Nam.

My Best Friends Frank And Myrrh

For a long time I have been meaning to write a post called "My Best Friend Frank," about essential oils and how awesome they are for healing (physical and emotional) and for protection. I love the sacred relationship between God and plants, which unconditionally obey and love Him. I think this obedience and love is what gives essential oils their power. But rather than write all about essential oils, I thought I would share this story, from Mandi, which was sent to me after my most recent retreat, where we used the oils combined with meditation with amazing results. Here is her story:

I just got back from the most wonderful retreat. My friend Felice came here to teach us Kundalini Meditation.  It was a spiritual weekend, full of learning, healing, and spiritual guidance. God spoke to my heart many times, and taught me what I needed to know.

I have been an avid user of essential oils for over two years. I was excited to share some of my knowledge with the ladies at the retreat. In preparation I listened to a CD by Daniel McDonald about emotional healing with essential oils. It was a powerful message, and so timely. He explains two particular ways to use the oils to facilitate emotional healing. I knew that I was supposed to share these two methods with the women at the retreat. The first activity was to select three oils that you are drawn to. After reading their descriptions in the Emotions and Essential Oils book, you are to read and ponder the messages that your body is giving you. He asks you to consider the physical ailments that are manifesting in your body, and how they are  communicating some emotional pain.

The second activity was to select the oil that repulses you, the smell of which you cannot tolerate. After consulting the book, you are to consider the emotions associated with that oil.  Which emotions have you avoided, ignored, or repressed?  He suggests that you journal, pray and meditate until you have an understanding of this emotion, and what it is that you need to release. 

On Saturday the five of us sat around the dining table and did these two exercises. Each of us had a powerful experience with our “Oil of Avoidance.”  I knew that my oil was Myrrh. I had always disliked the smell of Myrrh. It nauseated me. I knew that I was avoiding something big.

I read from Daniel's book about Myrrh.  This oil is known for healing the relationship between mother and child when it has been severed. It heals the disturbance and feelings of abandonment. "Myrrh assists individuals in letting go of fear. Through reestablishing a healthy connection to the earth and to one's own mother , Myrrh rekindles trust within the soul.  As the individual learns to once again live in trust, confidence in the goodness of life returns and the soul feels more safe and at home in the earth."

I have never had a close connection with my mother. She was a good mom, and she always took good care of us. I love her… but have always felt some resentment and anger towards her, without understanding why.  I blame her for many of my faults, even my body issues and weight gain. I am not proud of these feelings, but I feel them nonetheless. Clearly, I had some things to release.

So there I was, reading about Myrrh, and contemplating my relationship with my mother. I applied some Myrrh to my hands, cupped them around my nose and mouth, and breathed deeply. Yuck! I kept breathing. After 1 minute, I started some Alternate Nostril Breathing, and could still smell the Myrrh on my hands as I did so.  I continued for about 3 minutes. I felt an immediate shift.

I began to write in my journal. “Dear Mom- I forgive you. I accept you exactly where you are. I came to you at the right time. I take the best you gave me and I let the rest go. I can move on in peace. I love you how you are right now. You are enough. I am enough. We have lessons to teach each other.”

Although the five of us were sitting at the table together, we were each having a powerful experience of our own. We were each letting our special oil teach us about our emotional pain, then journaling about our thoughts. Many quiet tears were shed.

At that point,  Felice suggested that we do a Rebirthing Meditation—where she would help us do some mental guided imagery.  She had us go to our yoga mats, and then journal about our birth story, as we wished it was, in the most positive and beautiful way.  Then we lay down on our mats, and closed our eyes. She had us imagine that we were in heaven, preparing to come to earth for our mortal experience. We imagined our joy and excitement about coming to earth. We imagined ourselves coming into our mother’s womb, and how wonderful it was to have a body. We felt safe and secure in the womb, we felt loved. We also imagined what our mother was experiencing during the pregnancy, and how she felt to be carrying us. This was a beautiful and powerful experience for me. I started to feel greater love for my mother, and to understand her a little more. I began to accept her, and to accept my own body.

During this experience I was given some new knowledge. God spoke to my heart and helped me understand an important part of my life story. I was a cast-away; A spirit that had been sent into a mother’s womb, but had not been born, because of an elective abortion. My spirit returned to heaven, and was “reassigned” to another body, in another womb. This gave me many feelings of abandonment, and fear. Also, I was angry that I got this body, instead of the body I was meant to have. I was meant to have a better, more thin and beautiful and healthy body. I was meant to have a better, more thin and beautiful mother.  In an instant, I understood why I harbored such anger and resentment towards my mother, and my own body. It was both disturbing and enlightening.

God showed me a glimpse of what I felt in my mother’s womb- the confusion, the anger, the feelings of abandonment.  He also explained to me that I didn’t want to come out, that I wasn’t ready to be born. The OB doctor, who thought I was overdue, had actually induced labor- even though I was really 6 weeks premature!   They delivered me, and I weighed just over 4 lbs, so I was bottle fed and in an incubator for the first few weeks of my life. I think this only added to my feelings of abandonment and separation.  The words I had read in the book about Myrrh came flooding into my mind: “ Myrrh helps the soul to feel the love and nurturing presence of mother. Similar to the nutrient-rich colostrum found in mother’s milk, Myrrh oil inoculates individuals from the adverse and harmful effects of the world. Like the warmth of a mother’s love for her child, Myrrh assists individuals in feeling safe and secure.”

In that moment, God told me to start rubbing Myrrh on my stomach daily- that this would heal and repair my digestion- as if I was getting the colostrum I needed after my birth. He told me that it would help me to release the anger, heal emotionally, and would strengthen my relationship with my mother.

I could not contain the emotion that I felt at that moment. Tears poured from my eyes, and ran down the sides of my face. This was a revelation. A message straight from God.  I felt so connected to Him, and so loved. I was overwhelmed with gratitude and humility.

That night, as I prepared for bed, I applied some Myrrh oil to my stomach, as God had told me to. Then, He instructed me one more time... “Put it on your tongue, and suck your thumb.”  

I did so, and crawled into bed. Myrrh was the “colostrum” that I needed at that moment. Words cannot describe how amazing it felt. I felt soothed and consoled in a way that I never had before.  It filled a hole in my soul that had been there for 40 years. I wept with joy, and felt the love of God surrounding me.

I awoke the next day feeling like a brand new person. I now feel comfortable in THIS body, the body I had resisted and resented for most of my life. I am now reprogramming my brain and treating my body like the precious gift it is. I praise God for guiding me that day, and for the knowledge He gave me. I am so grateful for the gifts of essential oils, prayer, journaling and meditation that helped me to receive that knowledge.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Pictures From the Blue Ridge Mountain Retreat

Last weekend I taught an intimate women's retreat in the Blue Ridge Mountains about an hour from Washington DC. It was awesome. I have to say that it ended up being a retreat and life changing for me too. I also learned that strength does not lie in numbers. That little (well huge) cabin in the mountains was like a beacon of light that many many angels were visiting.

We enjoyed the fall colors and beautiful weather, warm enough to do yoga outside and cool enough at night to enjoy the hot tub and herbal tea. Here are a few pictures and I'm sure I'll write more about it when I finish processing it all. Sat Nam.

The Shannendoah Valley. 

Turban tying tips 

Learning about oils for physical and emotional healing

Sun rise

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

This Poem Healed Me

Last weekend I did some chain-breaking via energy healing on myself and released more baggage that had come down from my father’s line. I also discovered some things that I had suspected but wasn’t happy to learn about my parents’ marriage.

My mother died when I was 11 (cancer) and though I had an aunt hint about it before, I never wanted to think that my mother would have chosen to die to get out of her situation. I was deeply offended by this notion at the time, but now I see it is true. My mother (on some level) realized that she could never be who she needed to be, or have the power to help me with my mission, while in her physical body and married to my father. So she died. This enabled her to have a relationship with me in a different way and in a place where she can be of much more aid. 

This realization--that my mother died and abandoned me in order to be there for me, was an interesting game-changer. But it brought up a lot of sadness and resentment too. When my mother made her spirit presence known that evening at Lani’s house, I asked her all kinds of questions. Through our telepathic communication, she told me she was very excited and happy watching me fulfill my destiny. I realized what a cool woman she is. She is seriously cool. (I would say bad-ass, but I am trying not to use that word anymore.) Her vibe was so authentic. And so different than most of my memories of her. 

I asked her why she married my dad, because I had learned just a few days earlier that she wasn’t contracted to marry him. She had made a sacred contract to be my mother, but he was not contracted to be my father.  She could have married anyone. Learning this annoyed me, because most of the stuff I have been trying to overcome has come from him or come down on the DNA from his side.

In response to why she married him, she gave me a reason that I didn’t understand on an experiential level--and so I didn't feel like it was a good reason. Finally she said what I needed to do was just go read “that poem.” I knew which one. 

So I looked it up and read it aloud to Lani and Sheridan, who were with me. As I read the last line I felt all resentment washed away and only gratitude for my life. It was a beautiful healing. And I would love to share it with you. It is from Sharon Olds. I will paste it below and you can go to this link to hear her read it aloud if you wish. 



I see them standing at the formal gates of their colleges,
I see my father strolling out
under the ochre sandstone arch, the
red tiles glinting like bent
plates of blood behind his head, I
see my mother with a few light books at her hip
standing at the pillar made of tiny bricks,
the wrought-iron gate still open behind her, its
sword-tips aglow in the May air,
they are about to graduate, they are about to get married,
they are kids, they are dumb, all they know is they are
innocent, they would never hurt anybody.
I want to go up to them and say Stop,
don’t do it—she’s the wrong woman,
he’s the wrong man, you are going to do things
you cannot imagine you would ever do,
you are going to do bad things to children,
you are going to suffer in ways you have not heard of,
you are going to want to die. I want to go
up to them there in the late May sunlight and say it,
her hungry pretty face turning to me,
her pitiful beautiful untouched body,
his arrogant handsome face turning to me,
his pitiful beautiful untouched body,
but I don’t do it. I want to live. I
take them up like the male and female
paper dolls and bang them together
at the hips, like chips of flint, as if to
strike sparks from them, I say
Do what you are going to do, and I will tell about it.

If you want to learn more about poetry for healing, I wrote an article called Poetry for Healing that is published here. It was written to an audience of healers, but I think all might enjoy it.

Sat Nam

Please feel free to share experiences or links to your favorite healing poetry.