Tuesday, April 30, 2013

A Zombie Movie Changed My Life

A few years ago I watched a zombie movie and I was not the same after. But wait. Let me begin earlier. My date had worked on the movie--so we went to opening night. If I didn't like him, I probably wouldn't have seen it.

This is not a movie review. I honestly can't remember the name of the movie. But I will look it up for your sakes.... Ah ha! It was I Am Legend.

I guess I like Will Smith, but it wasn't Will so much as Bob (Marley) that made an impact on me--that, and one sentence uttered by a woman at the end.

Bob Marley has a big part in the movie--even though he is dead, his legend lives on. Maybe that is what the title is all about. I'm not sure. Anyway, I have always liked Bob's music, but my baby girl, from the womb, was a Marley fanatic. Any time he came on she'd go crazy with happiness and I could feel her endorphins in me. So I own a few albums and Bob has a special place in my heart. 

His music was a big part of the movie, and so was his life. At one point Will's character quotes Bob and I almost cried. Okay i did. I still do. Here is a clip.

 But the part that really changed me was when, after months maybe even years of not being sure if he is the only living soul on the earth who is not a zombie, a woman and her son show up at a key moment and save his life. He thinks she found him because of the AM radio broadcasts that he has been sending out every day. Later he learns she never heard them. He asks how she knew to come. She looks him in they eye and answers,  "God told me to."

It was amazing.

Something went through me as she said it. I so admired her boldness, the purity of her response. No apology or equivocation. I realized that as a faithful person in a world that seems to not believe in much, I sometimes couched my language. I would say things like, "I felt inspired to..." or "I had the intuition," or "it was a spiritual prompting...." I loved how she just said it like it was: God told me to.

That is the day I started to change my language. And that's when the gift of prophecy really became a reality to me. I realized that I don't care what people think about how I talk about God. I care how I think about it. And I wanted to be like that woman.

God talks to me. I listen. I listen to others who listen. Sometimes he talks through them. I read spiritual texts. I go to church. I meditate. I believe in a modern prophet who is amazing and I like to listen and read his words. Recently our church just had it's semi-annual general conference. I love listening to the talks that are broadcast.

Sometimes around general conference time, I hear people express a wish that so-and-so was watching this or that talk. Well, the truth is that it's for you, not anyone else. And whoever so-and-so is that you wish was watching is not forgotten by God. God reaches people through whatever they are watching, when they are ready. I have a firm testimony of this principle. Whether it is Lilo and Stitch 2 or A Wrinkle in Time or a Zombie movie.

I have a friend who had some bad experiences in life and left the church for a while and became an athiest. Then one day she was watching a movie and there was God character in the movie. He was not your usual God character. She said he was kind of silly and walked around like Charlie Chaplin. Doesn't sound spiritual, does it? Well, she said that watching that movie gave her hope that maybe if God existed and He was like that, she could believe in Him. That was the beginning of her return to active membership and temple attendance. She was doing amazing last time we talked.

And the Lilo and Stitch Reference was personal--it also touched me at a critical moment on my journey. Here is the clip:
(Unfortunately it is in Russian or something. If anyone wants to translate in the comments, I'd love it!)

And lately it seems like everything I choose to watch has some message just for me from God. Of course, I like to say I'm choosy about movies---but as I say that I laugh. HA! None of the above movies would be considered high art. So I'm not doing to judge anyone's movie choices. That is not what this is about. The point I am making is that it's okay. Every little thing is gonna be alright. God is talking to everyone. When it's time, everyone will hear.

Monday, April 29, 2013

Chain Breaking

On December 21, 2012, (the day we transitioned fully into the Aquarian age,) I was weighed down with the heaviest energy of my entire life. A few days before, I started doing some energy work that I didn’t realize would have such a huge effect on me. I blogged about this on Dec 20th,here. If you read the blog post, you can feel the intensity—but the following day, the 21st, was even more intense. I felt like I was feeling all the hopelessness and despair of all of my ancestors and all of my husband’s ancestors too. It was so heavy I almost couldn’t bear it. I understood why people commit suicide (and several of my ancestors did). By evening when it hadn’t cleared up, I asked for help. A friend guided me through an imagery journey where I asked to connect with an angel of Joy. The following vision occurred, (I quote this is from my journal):

The angel of joy appeared, who was actually Heavenly Mother. She filled me with light and she told me that I was strong. She said she knew that I didn’t want to be strong but that it was my spiritual gift, so stop wishing it wasn’t. That was eye opening. She filled with me light and also helped me break the chains holding my body down. [They were very very heavy. I had a physical feeling of not being able to move on my bed.] Others came to help (ancestors?) but they couldn’t do it without my help. So I took the light within me and blasted the chains and freed them too.

The angel said that I’d feel joy when I woke up. I thought she meant in the morning, but I realize she could mean “wake up” as in become conscious and awake to the things of God.

It was a strange imagery journey for me. It took a very long time to break the chains and when it was all over, I was still left with a feeling of not totally understanding or being free of them.

Last week after talking to the amazing Sarah Hinze (premier researcher on Pre-Birth Experiences - which are similar and sometimes cross over with Near Death Experiences) about one of her books in progress tentatively called Chain Breakers, I remembered this vision. I now realize what it was about.

As Sarah told me about her forthcoming book, she said that some of us have a mission in this life as chain breakers. As soon as she said it, I knew I am one, and so is my husband.

So what does it mean to be a chain breaker? In my experience, chain breaking is no small thing. Those of us who volunteered in the pre-existence to be chain breakers for our family lines have a heavy burden to bear. We come into this world with the energetic weight of generations of sins and sorrows and behavior patterns from our ancestors. Many people think because they have had certain traits/tendencies since they were born, that it is part of their personality. However, anger, defensiveness, harshness, addiction, fear, chronic depression, anxiety, guilt, grudges, etc, are not personality traits—they are energy distortions. And if you look through your family line and see them there too, they are most likely chains that need to be broken. (Please note: negative emotions aren’t necessarily a bad thing—and we shouldn’t try to do away with them, but sometimes emotions can become programs that take a life of their own.)

Carlfred Broderick, a noted family therapist and author, wrote about this principle of chain breakers. 

“. . . My profession as a family therapist has convinced me that God actively intervenes in some destructive lineages, assigning a valiant spirit to break the chain of destructiveness in such families.  Although these children may suffer innocently as victims of violence, neglect, and exploitation, through the grace of God some find the strength to "metabolize" the poison within them, refusing to pass it on to future generations. Before them were generations of destructive pain; after them the lines flow clear and pure. Their children and children's children will call them blessed.”
These chains CAN be broken! Many such things that were once thought genetic are actually epigenetic (which means “on top of the genes”), and they can be cleared or pulled, like threads, from the family tapestry. One day in the spirit world, all of your ancestors and posterity will thank you!

There are people close to me in my life that I can see quite clearly are chain breakers, like for example, my husband, but they themselves have no idea this is what they are carrying.

Chain breaking is not just a selfish quest for self improvement—all of your ancestors and posterity are counting on you to do it. The weight of chain breaking can be lightened immensely just by understanding what it is you are doing. But if a person doesn’t understand it, the sheer heaviness of the burden can shut them down, as it almost did me on December 21, 2012. What a day to reach impact with your mission. Wow. I didn’t realize then what was happening, but I am awake to it now and what a joy! I also realize that it is my mission to help others who are chain breakers.

So how does one break chains?

Because they are not physical chains, but energetic/metaphysical, they have to be addressed on the same level. So what is energy healing? It is all kind of things. For example, saying kind words to someone or giving them a hug is energy healing. So is hypnotherapy. So is guided imagery. So is anointing someone’s head with oil and pronouncing a blessing. Basically we all energy and any techniques that are based on this life-giving, universal energy (which we know is the light of Christ) are called energy healing. As far as professionals, there are so many different modalities of energy healing out there (I have studied many of them and every time I turn around there is a new one—that’s not a bad thing. It shows God has many channels.) Many of these techniques are fabulous. Some are great but I find rather slow. Some are amazingly super fast. Sometimes it takes a whole combination of different tools to break your combination of chains.  

FYI, not all “energy healing” or “energy healers” are a good fit for Christ-centered people because they require you to give away your agency, which will only wrap you up in more chains. (The main things to avoid are anything that requires you to let an outside spirit use your body or anything that requires recreational drugs or psychedelic drugs even if they occur in nature. Other than that, just follow inspiration and trust your intuition. All healing comes from Christ, but the facilitator’s beliefs and energy will effect the healing.)

Each person’s chain breaking path will be unique. However, there are several energy healing tools that I recommend everyone include in their recipe.

Pray: Prayer is energy, and the spoken word is the most powerful form of energy because it is how worlds were created: “All things are done by his word….” If you are thinking Yeah yeah, prayer. I always pray,then maybe you should pray to know what to pray for. Pray for the Spirit to make intercession. Pray to see things as they really are. We each have our own reality, but God’s reality is the one that counts and is the one that will change you. Chain breaking is an important mission and you will not be without legions of angels and ministering spirits to help you once you take this action. Unified prayer is powerful. So pray for others and ask them to join you in prayer for a specific intent.

The Temple: Pray in the temple and put names in the temple.  Prayer in the temple is very powerful. There are angels there in the circle who will take your prayers directly up to God. I have never seen these angels, but I have a testimony of them.

Find and take your own family names to the temple. [FYI in the LDS temples, we perform ordinances for our ancestral dead, including baptism, and sealing them in eternal marriage/families.] This is not doctrine, but I have this belief that energy healing, while it will heal our living ancestors through our genetic line, will only heal our dead ancestors if they have been sealed to us. Why do I think this? Just a hunch, and lots of hints from the scriptures. Like these:

And now, my dearly beloved brethren and sisters, let me assure you that these are principles in relation to the dead and the living that cannot be lightly passed over, as pertaining to our salvation. For their salvation is necessary and essential to our salvation, as Paul says concerning the fathers—that they without us cannot be made perfect—neither can we without our dead be made perfect. (D&C 128: 15)

And Malachi says, last chapter, verses 5th and 6th: Behold, I will send you Elijah the prophet before the coming of the great and dreadful day of the Lord: And he shall turn the heart of the fathers to the children, and the heart of the children to their fathers, lest I come and smite the earth with a curse.

Joseph Smith says this about the above scripture: I might have rendered a plainer translation to this, but it is sufficiently plain to suit my purpose as it stands. It is sufficient to know, in this case, that the earth will be smitten with a curse unless there is a welding link of some kind or other between the fathers and the children, upon some subject or other—and behold what is that subject? It is the baptism for the dead. For we without them cannot be made perfect; neither can they without us be made perfect. (D&C 128:18)

I’m sure people disagree with me about energy healing and sealing, and I’d love to hear thoughts in the comments. My rationale is that on earth we are bound by genetic links, but in the afterlife, if not sealed, we are kind of free floating –all sons and daughters of God, but in that world a son might be older than a mother and the family linkage is just not the same. I admit I have no concrete evidence on this, but let’s assume for a moment it is true. And that the only action you were to take was go seal some people together—suddenly any and all “energy healing” that was waiting to be applied to that person, is applied, and then travels all the way forward and back through all the linked generations. It goes far and wide. Not just to you but everyone in the shade of the tree will benefit.

Also, you will benefit in other ways too. Spencer W. Kimball said, "When we do our family names in the temple, we are building our own sanctified army that we can call on when we need them."  That is a paraphrase of his quote.

Meditate: Prayer is when we talk to God. Meditation is when God talks to us. Meditation is an energetic technology that opens the combination lock to God’s door so He can pour out his Spirit upon us. In Isaiah 55 God says “my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are my ways your ways.” But we learn in Lectures on Faith, The Spirit is the Mind of God, therefore, if we have His spirit, our thoughts and ways can be His ways. Certain forms of Meditation like Kundalini Yoga also can clear the generations as well as help us to change the patterns in our lives so that we don’t re-create the same problems. If you want to know more about Kundalini Yoga Meditation you can take my next webinar or sign up for my newsletter (on the right) so that you can download me free e-book when it is ready in about a week! 

Fasting (going without food and drink or some other thing for 24 hours while praying for a specific intent) is an amazing kind of energy healing. In Isaiah 58, God lays out the blessings of the fast. They are enormous and they specifically mention chainbreaking. Here they are:

“And they that shall be of they [your posterity] shall build the old waste places: thou shalt raise up the foundations of many generations; and thou shalt be called, The Repairer of the breach, The restorer of paths to well in.” –Isaiah 58:12

My personal experience is that whenever I fast, God guides me to a new energy healing technique or he increases my spiritual gifts and intuition.

Oh and one more thing: this is actually the first thing one should do before doing any healing, because that is the pattern that Christ set, is to cast out any darkness, such as devils, demons, or unclean spirits. Always do this in the name of Jesus Christ as this is the fastest and best way. And these are the signs of his followers: that “they cast out devils in my name.” Then ask Christ to shield you in His love and power. Contrary to popular belief, devils are pretty common and like to hide out in us and act like they aren’t there. I have had them, and I frequently cast them out of my clients. They feed on our natural negative tendencies/weaknesses and exaggerate them. I’ll write a post on this soon. But for now, even if you don’t think you could have this problem, just humor me and cast them out anyway. It only takes a few seconds to say the words and command them to go. I recommend doing it every day during your prayers.

I’m sure I’ll have more to say about this soon since I feel like I am just learning in many ways. I welcome thoughts and comments.Also, if you have a story about chain breaking that you would like to submit to Sarah, she is still looking for stories for her book. You can find her at www.sarahhinze.com

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Bird's Home -

It is almost the end of national poetry month. I can't believe I haven't mentioned it earlier. While I was away from home I had a few pleasures and one was a poetry class where I got to immerse myself in some wonderful poetry and write some too. Here is a recent finish.

Bird's Home
by Felice Austin

Bird’s new home is
In the chest cavity
Of a corpse

There is plenty of room there
The ribcage opens to the west
And a nice view of the sunset

Nestled where the heart was
Sometimes she fancies she can hear it
Still beating. Or perhaps it is the rhythm

Of the universe
Her own heart beat is so much faster
Than this slow steady rhythm

When she lays her eggs, her children
Will think the heart beat is their father.

Sometimes she reads the hieroglyphics
Carved on the inside of the bones
Even maggots are artists

There are still a few scraps of
Threadbare clothing on the corpse
That shield her from wind

Bird sings happily that her nest is the best.
She has decorated it with string, scraps of
Poetry, shiny papers

She has strung them across the clavicle
Like a row of colored flags on
Dia De Los Muertos

There is hair on the corpse
Which has many uses
The carrion eaters have carried away everything else

The liver is gone
So is success, happiness,
Identity as man or woman

No longer will this mortal
Struggle to cover its nakedness
In exposure comes beauty

It is mostly skeleton now, though
Strange pieces of it have been preserved,
Petrified in the desert climate,
Things no one believed existed:

All the watermelon seeds ever swallowed.
Benign tumors that are now
Growing strange beautiful flowers
A knee cap

A tattoo, shriveled
Like an abandoned flag
She uses as a rug in her nest

By summer, 4 chicks sing happy songs too,
And heirloom watermelons grow
all over the meadow.

Monday, April 22, 2013

I'm Back In The Sun

I’m back in California. Hooray!  I have been back for a few weeks. Being away from home for a few months has given me an appreciation for the fact that I live in the lap of luxury. Here is what I mean:

The last week I have been at a beach house with no internet connection. It has been a great time to get writing done and connect with mother earth. And since I left Utah there has been a serious gushing of inspiration. Perhaps it was all that driving (I came home via a week in Arizona—so we have been all over the place) that gave me the space to receive all of it.  So, once I have an internet connection (I am currently connecting via a coffee shop), you can expect you have a gush of words coming from this corner of the internet.

First and foremost! My promised free e-book is 90% done! I just have to finish the last bits, run it by someone wiser than me to make sure it is all accurate and that I am not diluting or misrepresenting any of the teachings (purity of the teaching is important), add pictures, check the grammar and spelling, and then it will be in your hands/on your phones/computers. It will be an amazing resource for you or anyone curious about Kundalini Yoga & Meditation. It’s meant as an introductory e-book—so you can expect about 20-ish pages. I anticipate writing a longer one later that you can buy for small change. But lets start with baby steps.

And here are some of the titles/subjects of the blog posts you can expect in the near future.

  • Parenting and Mental Illness (on my other blog)
  • Ask Them Their Names (a 2-3 part series on my other blog)
  • Chain Breaking (on both blogs - maybe)
  • Enjoy It!
  • Why Me? Why Now?
  • One Thing is Needful
  • Real Pleasures
  • Sat Nam vs. I’m Not Worthy
  • Are You an Empath?
  • Differences in the Mind Body Connection
  • Ecstasy and Overwhelm
  • Being Ahead of Your Time
  • Pre-mortal Wounds
  • Documentary Film in the Aquarian Age
  • Doubt and Devils
  • Doing things His Way
  • My best friend Frank

And I have even written a few poems I might share. I await your comments on all of the above.