Sunday, November 16, 2014

Healing My Daughter's Pre-Birth Wounds With The Siri Giatri Mantra - Lani's Story


Healing My Daughter's Pre-Birth Wounds With The Siri Giatri Mantra
by Lani Axman



In early 2013, I discovered that my youngest daughter had come to this earth carrying wounds from a previous womb experience. She had been aborted by another mother. As a result of her prebirth trauma, my daughter spent much of her toddlerhood in a state of distress, anger, sadness, and angst. Once I understood why, I felt compelled to do whatever I could to help her heal.
In June 2013, I attended a meditation retreat taught by Felice. While there, I learned the meditation Ra Ma Da Sa. I learned that this particular meditation is a powerful healing prayer. We chanted the mantra at the retreat, and it was so beautiful that it penetrating every inch of my body and sent my spirit soaring.
The complete mantra is “Raa Maa Daa Saa Saa Say So Hung.” It means Sun, Moon, Earth, Infinity, Totality of Infinity, I am thou. Or, as I like to say, it’s basically a very condensed version of Doctrine and Covenants 88:7–13:


This is the light of Christ. As also he is in the sun, and the light of the sun, and the power thereof by which it was made. As also he is in the moon, and is the light of the moon, and the power thereof by which it was made; as also the light of the stars, and the power thereof by which they were made; and the earth also, and the power thereof, even the earth upon which you stand. And the light which shineth, which giveth you light, is through him who enlighteneth your eyes, which is the same light that quickeneth your understandings; which light proceedeth forth from the presence of God to fill the immensity of space—the light which is in all things, which giveth life to all things, which is the law by which all things are governed, even the power of God.”


All healing comes from Christ, and His light infuses and gives life to everyone and everything in the universe. After returning home after our summer trip to Utah, I decided that I wanted to do forty days of Ra Ma Da Sa with the intention of helping my daughter heal from her prebirth wounds. So I did. And it was life changing.
Before I tell you more, I want to explain some more background. I learned when my daughter was born that she was likely originally sharing my womb with a twin. Since then, I have received line upon line more and more information about her twin, my unborn son. I feel he is a powerful healer-soul; his name is Elijah, and he very much wants to come to our family, in part because he is very close with my daughter and his presence will help her (and me).
Four days into my forty days of Ra Ma Da Sa, I had a powerful vision type of experience while meditating. It was early in the morning, and my daughter was still asleep on my bed. As I chanted on her behalf, I envisioned where she was and sent my love to her. Then I saw (in my mind) my unborn son, Elijah, appear at her side. He lay down by her. And then, suddenly, it was like her spirit was in pieces floating around her body. Elijah started gathering all the pieces of her spirit in the palm of his hand.
A few moments later, the Savior appeared at the foot of the bed, and Elijah handed all the pieces of her spirit to Christ. In the palms of His hands, the pieces fused together in white light. Elijah gathered more and more pieces and continued handing them to Christ, and in His hands they continued to glow and combine.
At the end of the meditation, I kept feeling the urge to cup my hands to receive her spirit. Finally I did. I held her recombined spirit in my palms. Then I put my hands to my chest and put her spirit into my heart. I told her, "You can be whole now, Baby." And I filled my heart with love for her. Then I moved my hands from my chest, outstretched in front of me, and set her free.
The next day, my daughter was awake while I meditated. When I started Ra Ma Da Sa, she sat on my lap and grabbed my arms to wrap them around her. So I sat with my arms around her, singing until she got up. 
A little bit later she came back in with her baby doll. At first my daughter pushed her doll toward me and put its arms around my neck. Then she sat down in my lap with the baby on her lap and told me to hold the baby. So I continued Ra Ma Da Sa with my hands holding her arms and both of our arms around the baby.
At that moment it seemed so clear that she was presenting the baby doll as her inner child—the spirit who had experienced prenatal and premortal traumas. And we were cradling that part of her in our arms while I prayed for her in song. It was only one of many beautiful, tender moments we shared during that time.
There were many days, however, when my daughter’s behavior seemed worse than ever. Her anger, neediness, screaming, and obvious emotional pain weighed heavily on me, and I wondered, If this meditation is supposed to be helping her, then why does she seem worse than ever? But I carried on, telling myself that it was stirring things up for her.
For forty days I prayed in song for my daughter’s healing. And slowly, bit by bit, it came. Gradually, her energy shifted. The angst that had been so much a part of her presence dissolved little by little until it was just gone. She was, quite literally, a new child. But it wasn’t just her. We were all new. My husband and I especially saw that in seeking healing for her, we also found healing for ourselves and our relationships with her. For the first time since she had been conceived, my husband felt an intense love for her, unlike anything he had felt for her before. It brought him nearly to tears when he told me about it, and he doesn’t cry.
Once freed from her pain, we watched my daughter soar. While she hadn’t been very verbal before, she suddenly began speaking in sentences. She blossomed socially, becoming a much more chatty and talkative companion. Where I used to feel weighed down by the pain radiating from her, I now could feel her peace and joy. Faraway family members who visited couldn’t believe the change in her. She was free!
Another mother who is raising a former-castaway asked me last year:


When I discovered that my daughter had been aborted, it made sense to me why she is the way she is and the love I needed to show her. But I was thinking, why would her soul need healing if she was in heaven in Christ’s presence? Wouldn’t you think being in His presence would heal those wounds?


Her question led to lots of pondering and seeking. The following is the answer that came to me: In many near-death experience accounts, we see that individuals are given a choice of whether to return to their bodies or remain in heaven. I believe this emphasis on freedom of choice is a universal principle in God’s plan. As I pondered the aborted children waiting in heaven, the impression that came to me was that some of them are completely healed by divine love. But I felt impressed that it was all governed by choice. Some of those children choose to receive complete healing of their previous womb trauma. Their pain and sadness are completely swept away.
However, I believe the aborted are also given another option: to retain a portion of their memory of the experience and their pain upon returning to Earth. I feel that some of these children accept a mission to bring to light the reality of their existence and the truth about the trauma experienced by the aborted. They retain their scars just as Christ chose to retain His scars—as a testament to the world. They take up this bitter cup in order to share their truth so that future souls can perhaps be saved the anguish they have suffered.
When all of these impressions washed over me, I was in awe of these courageous souls. I began to weep as I looked down at my own daughter, recognizing the immense greatness of her soul, willing to carry such a painful burden so that others might know the truth. What strength! What love!
What a privilege to have been chosen to bear her, love her, and play a small part in helping her heal. I pray her experience and mine will aid others in their own paths to healing.


To learn more about castaways and the fate of aborted souls you can visit www.theyremember.org or http://sarahhinze.com. I also just did an interview with Sarah Hinze on my podcast.



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